Marilyn MorningstAR

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 I wonder as I write my poem

If anyone will read it

Either now or when I'm dead

If anyone will need it!


 

   

LOVOLOGY

Once our love was veiled through our forgetfulness, yet it does live again just as our spirits live in the eternal worlds as the veil is lifted and we remember again.  The depth of our love did hibernate and linger awaiting our awakening, and though a million years had passed not one truth nor inch of depth did pass away from it, for love has a life of it's own, and it will live as it wishes against all rejection, opposition, and distance.

My love for you lived a life of its own fantasy, in a world of make-believe somewhere within the stars where dreams that were once laid to die, may resurrect old hopes and make application for an opportunity to be reborn into a new life in a world where love abides only with the pure in heart and the selfless humble ones who give their all to their beloved.

Then once again beyond all eternal comprehension you were in my arms again, and at last your love embraced my own and fathered a dream child, a new life with a new breath and a new hope and a new world of blessed spring blooming in colors unknown before to the human eye, and a blissful rainbow with no end and no beginning, just multitudinous shades that swelled my soul with an effervescence too splendid for my weary heart.  My dream of dreams, my hope of hopes, there in my arms, there in my heart with overflowing adoration and an endless yearning.  And then you were gone again.

The depth of love our appeared in a vision at the moment of departure, and through the longings of separation love has given a re-birth to the new life that cries to know love again, and yet its breath multiples the pit of pain that continues to abide as the distance tares away at the truth and reality teaches unwanted lessons that serve to haunt and humble and hurt.

And now, though the waves of the sea of life separate us in body, there is not, nor ever has there been a wave large enough, nor a sea deep enough to separate the bond of love that was knit into my fabric by that heavenly being, and which stitches my soul to yours in some vast exalted form.

My love is far greater than all the cords that bind the world together, yet know not their strength.  Though its greatest wish may be to bind your soul securely to mine in an everlasting carousel of wonder, yet its greatest joy is to set you free knowing that the strength of my love alone will bind your spirit to my own so tightly that no power of steel nor forces less than that of God Himself can loose you.

I will always recall our loves delightful days of desires and anticipation's and fantasies, though because of them my dreams may again be shattered, as the tempest destroys the tiny seaside hamlet in its innocence, and scatters the remains among the thistles of the desert.  Yes, my weary soul may dine again among the broken hearted, and my feet may push me forward into some distant land of forgetting where broken dreams and lost loves may be shelved and tucked away into some solemn corner of life's bitter memories while the world teaches its sober lessons, and yet through all my stumblings will I remember those eyes that loved me, and those hands that held me, and those words that had no answers.  And then, even every moment that I do inhale the air of life will I recall the pain and anguish and loss that has followed me since the day you first said farewell to us.

Yet will I cling to love though its rivers may drown me and it's sea may carry me out to the depths of despair.  To find you my love, I will fly beyond the farthest star though the fire of the sun may sear my outer form, yet will my spirit live to greet your devotion and heart of honor, someday my love, someday among the starlit clouds.  The jewels of your love fill me with riches beyond measure and wonder far greater than the glory of the earth's celestial body, and yet my tears still fill the oceans as the sharp edges of your golden gifts drill holes in my heart of loneliness, and the realization of the possibility of losing your love again crucifies my joy.

Yet do I yearn for your love's steep mountain, as it beckons me with the soft green hills of hope, and simple paths of scented dreams and fragrant passions, and in that yearning do I make way for forgetting the rocks that do tumble upon me as I climb the arduous mountain of our love's journey. 

Ah, to know, love is a hoe, a sickle, a pruning shear in the hand of God, and though He hollows your depth with His tools it is as a cleansing and refining for the soul, for upon awakening from this elementary reality one must be purged and pure to claim to be a part of God's heart, which existence is to understand the ultimate experience of true love.

Your eyes give me dreams to dream.

My eyes hunger for your face.

 

   
love humanity
   

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN ABOVE
 

The moon is rising now

Full and glowing and guiding

Above the blanket of white cotton

Clouds of loveís destiny deciding

 

As the wings push me onward

It takes more than my breath away

It locks my heart in endless yearning

While it takes from me. one bright day

 

I cannot stop the burning

Of the words your heart disclosed

I cannot put the dream to sleep

With the last chapter is yet untold

 

And yet there comes an ending

To the saddest chapter of my soul

And then a new beginning

Where love once took itís toll

 

And so it is this stage of life

When true love becomes the aim

And all else resumes itís smaller place

Within this lifeís odd game

 

I will pass this way but once

When the swell of sadness sings

A tune of your forgiving love

Such happiness it brings

 

Thank you for your goodness

Thank you for your love

Thank you for a day to remember

Until we meet again above

 

 July 1994 flying home from Seattle

 

 

The Pain
 

Once we were born into

A World of flowers and love

 

But suddenly we awaken

In an ominous world

Of fear and hate

 

The mysterious wonder of

It all is that we are only

Born to die within that

Sphere of incredible creatures

 

And what does it mean

to live and to die is not

only to love and to be loved

 

In retrospect what have

We actually accomplished

At the end of our life,

If only we have the material

Properties of man made

Substances, which are only

Obtained to be left behind

At the end of it all

 

What does our one

Small life mean to a

World of so many millions

Of loquacious, busy people

If not to find peace of mind

And understanding of our intelligence

 

If only all of us could

Be born to accomplish the

Very simple task of making

Others happy.  It would all

Be worth while, the pain of

Birth and dying.

 

   

AS I RECALL YOUR KISS
 

As I now rest once again

Within our sweet abode

A certain sadness lingers

As I feel our love erode

 

As I cast my gaze once again

Upon the comfort I have lost

And wonder why I had to go

I must recall how great the cost

 

For no matter how I love you

There are things too great to ask

Now matter how much I love you

For me there is a greater task

 

If only I could have pleased you

The way the Lord would have it

If only I could have pleased you

A life together we could have knit

 

As I now rest once again

Upon your sweet embrace

It breaks my heart, my darling

Oh, how much I miss your face

 

As I gaze into your eyes again

And feel your lips so rare

There will never be another

Whose kiss could quite compare

 

And so there is much sorrow

As I must say goodbye again

It could have been so special

I am quite sad it had to end

 

But there are dreams that cannot be

And there are principles to ponder

Yet throughout all my life to come

My love for you will yet grow fonder

 

As I recall your kiss

 

 
   

Void Matters

 

When void moments take the place of memories

And memories pleasant lose their hope

And hope becomes a thing that used to be

That's when you ask, why

 

Why does this pain pierce the gall

And make pulse grow so rapid

And the world turn inside out

That's when you ask, how

 

How can feelings numb grow hot

And hot ones put to sleep

And wash away desires voice

That's when you ask, how long

 

How long until the heart may burn

And kisses may be written

And when will love feel real again

That's when you ask, where's he

 

Where is he who smiled at me

And turned my life to ashes

And kissed good-bye one broken heart

That's when you ask, why bother

 

Why bother now when hope is gone

And make sense of life's chatter

And live for just the breath you take

That's when you ask, what matters

 

VOICES IN THE WIND 

 

I hear a voice in the wind

A voice to me quite clear

Yet, I do not discern it

Perhaps, I do not dare

 

It is a voice that's calling

Perhaps it's in my heart

But life is full of voices

I don't know where to start

 

The voice I hear is crying

The voice, it comes more clear

Not one, but many calling

For me their burdens bear

 

They call to me from India

They call to me from home

They call to me from deep inside

How can I do it all alone

 

The voices cry of hunger

The voices cry for love

The voices tear my heart apart

I can feel them in my blood

 

Listen, hear their voices

Listen, hear their pain

The breeze brings the message

Can you hear it in the wind

 

How many voices call us

How many voices cry

We'll never really know them

Unless we go to them and try

 

Don't let the voices dwindle

Don't let your soul grow thin

The voices bring you blessings

Send them back upon the wind

 

   

A THOUSAND MIRACLES

 

I conquered many human treasures

Even joined forces of great measure

Tripled the task not even asked

And yet my heart must wear a mask

 

A thousand miracles might mend the wound

Yet roses wilt where once they bloomed

When love so long ago was killed

It was just as if my blood was spilled

 

I conquered where others dare not

Kissed their tears while others fought

Mended knees and hearts so dear

But most of all filled up with tears

 

A thousand miracles would be a start

To mend a million pieces of my broken heart

What ever happened to love ever after

Without it there is just sad laughter

 

I conquered many disorganized minds

Even learned to read life's signs

Flew the world and felt it's sorrow

The thing for me no need to borrow

 

A thousand miracles could never mend the stain

A thousand miracles won't even ease the pain

No, there is no hope without your love

For all my life, just one miracle from above

 

A thousand miracles can't bring you back

A thousand miracles yet just one fact

A thousand miracles without your heart

A thousand miracles with us apart

 

Is a thousand dead miracles

 

TIME OF TOKEN

 

He wants me to sing a token tune

He wants me to ride on a paper moon

He wants me to laugh, sing and play

But I can do that some other day

 

Today there is something I can do

To help someone-not like you

Someone helpless, meek, and mild

An old person or a forgotten child

 

If one day, my maker I must meet

I'll kneel down and bathe His feet

And he will know what I do today

Then I'll have time to sing and play

 

   

I'LL BE THERE
 

Every space reminds my heart

Of the sweet gift your lips impart

And my craving soul longs to hear

The tender words of love you bear

 

The touch of your silky fingertips

As they caress my body and lips

Your breast against my beating heart

Feeling the desire from the very start

 

Even though our time is short

I'll be your girl in this small port

And savor every moments love

Then send it away on a crying dove

 

But will I ever forget the feeling

That once sent my soul a reeling

And stirred every inner desire

Like the blazing heat of an open fire

 

No, my love, you'll always be

One precious, precious memory

Ask the sea when you meet again

About the fusion we here did blend

 

Listen for whispers on the ocean's wind

You will hear the words of love I send

Forever the shores beyond your mind

Is where my words of love, you'll find

 

When you're alone in some far away land

Remember how tender you held my hand

Think of the desire that kissed your heart

The passion from which we had to part

 

And I'll be there

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What could I do

 

We danced all night

I was in his arms

 

As we loved and laughed

All that night

I knew somehow

I had insight

 

I was almost in love

with him

But he wasn't almost in love

with me

 

He loved another

And this I knew

But I wanted and

needed him

 

What could I do?

 

Lullaby Town
 

Fairies bring the most wonderful dreams

The sandman and Prince Charming are kings

Where lullaby's are sung by cherubs on high

And the moon and the stars all dance in the skies

 

A child's mind can imagine many things

A happy heart, oh, how it sings

Radiant notes and sparkling eyes

Cherry, apple, and pumpkin pies

 

There is a place called lullaby town

Where no one is allowed to frown

A place of peace where love is full

It lives inside of each of you

 

Once a child who could not speak

Showed the world its very peaks

Laying there with death so near

Faintly smiled, took away my fear

 

She was too young to know the way

Through clouds of cotton and sunset rays

But just before the moment came

She reached for me through all the pain

 

Have a Merry Christmas, she sighed

Then she took the golden angels ride

Heaven brings the most peaceful dreams

For now I know she's with the king

 

Children should live to sing and dance

Or at least be given half the chance

With help from folks who care like you

Others will live a life brand new

 

Let's never forget the children sweet

Who we will meet at the Saviorís feet

They need our work, our help, our love

And special prayers to him above

 

Christmas spirit, take home with you

Smell the scents of pine, taste love renewed

And don't forget to stop in lullaby town

During the hustle, bustle of holiday sounds

 

It's up to you to find the ways

To silver hours and golden days

Through nursery rhymes and charming toys

You too can embellish all the joys

 

There are dreams for a penny and some that cost two

There are dreams of clowns and dreams for fools

Fairies bring the most beautiful dreams

But you are the only one it seems

 

That makes them come true

 

   

WHAT ANGEL

 

Are we puppets in the play of life

On the stage where lies loves lonely knife

Controlled by acts beyond our reach

Of lessons no one but we can preach

 

And who are we but actors weak

Without a script of authors speech

Oh, when do we follow or when to lead

Director please, answer so we may succeed

 

Alone we grope through our painful parts

And dodge the test of hidden darts

That pierce the character of this play

With points so sharp they cause decay

 

When at last the scene has ended

And we have been both praised and offended

What angel comes to our applaud

Depends on the role of life we trod

 

The castle for some is roses and plums

Still others desire chocolates with rum

For some a golden carriage will do

Or the mist of the morning in shades of blue

 

What angel will understand the play

Or why we didnít want to stay

Which castle will suit our confusion

Of splendor within our roles illusion

 

Where is the angel of lifeís agony

Who changes lifeís drama to ecstasy

When the curtain falls on precious scenes

And the part was but a part of what it seemed

 

Where is the angel who sings your sorrow

When joy and happiness must await tomorrow

Will the song of the saints ease the pain

Can it even remove the pressing crane

 

That crushes and lifts lifeís mystery

As we stumble through the agony and the ecstasy

As we adore our precious melodies

And beg for more painful, blissful memories

 

Oh, angel of mercy where are you

Should I plead again and beg you too

Wonít you come, my guardian to take my hand

Close my act, and deliver me to the promised land

 

Where love may blossom without a shower

And players may dance within lifeís flowers

As freedom lifts my curtained heart

Oh, please, a castle of love to me impart

 

What angel will sound my love supreme

What angel will grant my fondest dream

What angel will bring me home to you

At last to play the part I drew............

 

Before the world was
 

'Peace' The Symbol of the Century

 

'Peace', the symbol of the century

But what are we doing to demonstrate it

To our loving world that

Peace is the answer

 

We continue in war and

Thrust our weapons out

To our brothers

 

Can we believe that

If we kill every human body

In this world that doesn't

Believe in our Peace

We can have what we want

 

Is it peace or power

 

One question though

How many of our precious

Sons of God are

We throwing into the depths of

Hell along beside

 

Is it our responsibility

to do destiny's duty in saying

Who shall live and who shall die

 

Or is it the lovers of Peace

With their power

Using their force to make

hatred and death

 

Do they not realize

We must

First learn to love each soul

For if we hate anyone anywhere

We will never find the peace we seek

 

The answer my brothers is

Not war or force

 

For to hold love in our heart

Is the only gleam of hope

We will ever have to

Lead each other to peace

 

   

ONCE LOVE


Once his love has laid with you

Your heart becomes a tender blue

The joy you feel you'll always know

Takes on a sleepy, dormant glow

 

Once his love has laid with you

Your heart takes on a different view

The bliss you feel you'll always have

Soon no longer marks your path

 

The world and its' games are played

Before you grasp the sad charade

Life has sucked out all you had

The love is gone, life's so sad

 

Once its love has laid with you

Your blinded to the cards you drew

Life has killed the dream you dreamed

Never quite was the joy it seemed

 

The P's of Possession


Poured through a flexible funnel

Patted into a small ball

Pretending to feel real

Pealing the thin skin

Piercing the sinners substance

Priming the prim and proper

Pouncing on any ambition

Pointing to perfect imperfections

Purposely rushing and crushing

Poisoning the ingredients

Putting masks on melting men

Perpetrating it's greening meaning

Pounding them into oblivion

Pleading to end lust and injustice

Plowing through the rolling red tape

Picking out the silver seeds

Pondering WHY

 

Precious bloody money

Pinches starving slaves

Promising future fortunes

Pernicious cruelty crowds

Prudence seldom stays

Pampered sets sounding

Pushing them down

Pardoning cries of lies

People begging for freedom

 

 

   

A MIRACLE IN PARADISE

 

Where is my paradise

The place within my dreams

Where lovers kiss in moonlight

And make love in sunlit streams

 

With a hand to hold at midnight

Along the golden shore

I need to be a lover in love

Only that, and nothing more

 

Send me a miracle in paradise

Who'll make love so tenderly

And take away the bitter cold

Kiss me and make me free

 

At last my dreams are coming true

You are here with me

I'm letting go of all my pain

As we share our love at sea

 

A miracle in paradise

Don't let it slip away

Our passion is so potent

In the sunset of the day

 

Your tender lips awaken me

I will never be the same

After holding you, my miracle

My fire cannot be tammed

 

My lover in paradise

Nothing means more than you

But this feeling in my heart

I hope you can feel it too

 

Where is my paradise

It's right here in my heart

The moment that I met you

I could feel it start

 

You gave me a new beginning

A hope for things unseen

The words you softly whispered

Ended my searching dream

 

You are my miracle in paradise

My lover with lips of love

Now I know what I've been missing

And praise the stars above

 

But will it last forever

When paradise no longer lives

When you go back home to her

And all that she has to give

 

A miracle in paradise

Don't let it slip away

Our passion is so potent

In the sunset of the day

 

Your tender lips awaken me

I will never be the same

After holding you my miracle

My fire cannot be tamed


My lover in paradise

Nothing means more than you

But this feeling in my heart

Please don't make me blue

 

And when the dream has ended

If you are no longer mine

What will I do with your memory

When our songs no longer rhyme

 

My miracle in paradise

My life is in your hands

My miracle in paradise

It's time to make our plans

 

You are my paradise

The lover of my dreams

You are my hand to hold

My sunset and my streams

 

A miracle in paradise

Within the folds of time

There will never be another

Your paradise is mine

 

No Ordinary Man

 

An ordinary man can sit on the porch

And be satisfied with the simple things

An ordinary man finds happiness in a sip of beer

And a fishing pole or a five point deer

 

But this man was no ordinary man

He wanted the taste of many treasures

He wanted to feel the grander highs

Of spirit, mind, and pleasures

 

An ordinary man has time to spare

And cares not how he spends it

An ordinary man accepts his gloom

And misses the smell of successes bloom

 

But this man was no ordinary man

He wanted celestial joy and set to get it

He wanted to serve both man and God

And leave the world better than he found it

 

An ordinary man is idol and board

And blames it on his lot in life

An ordinary man can't find things to do

And often times this makes him blue

 

But this man was no ordinary man

He made himself a winner

He lived, suffered, sinned and grew

Laughed and loved even the rose dew glimmer

 

This man loved people of every kind

Especially the innocent children

His goal was to alleviate hunger

The hunger of the little children

 

This man loved good books

Good works he loved to do

He loved to write, to paint, to sing

This and work was how he grew

 

This man had set his goals, you see

He bloomed where he was planted

This man took right out of life

What others took for granted

 

This man had a big family

Which he cherished above all other

He gave of himself as much as he had

To them and all his brothers

 

This man was not an intellect

Although genius he could be

This man was not a rich man

Because he gave away his fortune to be free

 

This man was no ordinary man

Because this man was an extraordinary man

This man was no ordinary man

For this man was a woman

 

   

Sunshine Calls Me Home

 

Sunshine calls me home

When all seems dull and cold

When my life is such a storm

I remember well the warm

 

Home is where my heart

Fuels to fight the right

The night without you there

The night filled with despair

 

Once you were in my arms

No questions spoiled the flame

We knew it could not last

We knew it should not last

 

Now sunshine calls me home

It's there I can forget

Someday we'll meet again

Someday we'll meet again

 

 
   

BUT HE PROMISED

 

ďIíd give anything not to do thisĒ

His words were so soft and weak

ďIíd give anything not to do thisĒ

Words he promised never again to speak

 

ďI love you more than I thought possibleĒ

My soulmate, my friend, my lover

ďI love you more than I thought possible

But how can I choose you above the othersĒ

 

ďIím so sorry, I must say it again

What have I done to your life

Iím so sorry, I must say it again

That I failed to take you for my wifeĒ

 

ďSomeday I will come for you, I promise

When we can live the years together

Someday I will come for you, I promise

Then we will share our love foreverĒ

 

ďFor now I must say goodbye, sweetheart

I must sacrifice your love for Godís test

For now I must say goodbye, sweetheart

Iím sure for this we will be very blessedĒ

 

But he promised 

 

The Seeker

 

As he lay beneath the greening leaves of the aging oak tree, his mind was clouded with mortal translations as he wondered what to believe.

The strong breeze awakened him from a sleepless dream.  His opened eyes widened to engulf the images which appeared before him.  Outreaching, like a newborn infant yearning for security and comfort, unknowing of the human tragedies, he reached openly for guidance, as a beggar in the midst of a royal crowd.  Silvery shadows of silky personages stood barefoot, uplifted below the beckoning sun which had risen in this moment.  Voices as silent as ripples over a forsaken pond, revealed true meanings.

As they touched hands, he clung tightly in an effort to grasp the realness of it. With trembling lips he kissed the scared yet scared hand, which drifted again from his reality.  Haunted by the gnawing knowledge he knew he must stand and face the world.

 

   

PARADISE


Where is paradise

It's been gone too long

I miss its' music

I miss its' song

 

Where is music

It's been gone too long

I miss its' melody

I miss its' song

 

Where is grace

It's been gone too long

I miss it's measure

I miss its' song

 

Where is love

It's been gone too long

I miss its' pleasure

I miss its' song

 

When love is no longer graceful

And music no longer song

Life is no longer lovely

And paradise is gone

 

 
   

To My Beloved...As I Sit By The Fire

 

I lay beside the fire now

Warming my thoughts of you

The blue flames surround the log

Like I surround you in love

 

The breath of the fire caresses my face

With chills of remembrance

Of nights alone in Brussels

Of lingering fire that burned my soul

 

The white flames dance and withdraw

They are confined to togetherness

They move and belong to one another

As we belong to each other

 

The red embers sparkle of and on

As the flames leave and return again

Like your dark eyes that sparkle always

When they meet mine in our closest moments

 

The fire tempts my passions for meditation

Contemplation, relaxation

In my hectic city of life, but

Most of all it directs my senses

 

The reality of fire is time

Time is not everlasting

Not in our rude creation

But love fires the eternity's

 

The fire quickly inhales it's source

Smiles flickers while knowing

Time limits itself and awaits no man

Tonight's fire is tomorrow's eternity

 

Love with me the fire

Help us to understand it

Use it for the benefit of eternity

Lasting above all others

 

Above all others our fire shall burn

We will kindle it each moment

Praying it not to go out

Moment by moment remembering death

 

For death is the end and the beginning

If we are true to it endlessly

The flame of love will be born again

In the death of an eternal fire

 

Be my love, my fire

Fill me with your sparkle

Your faithfulness is my splendor

We shall go together through the lightness

 

Out light shall be one with the fire

We will no longer see darkness

Our lips will cease to kiss

For we will be one forever

 

I gather the wood piece by piece

Building our love for eternity

Each piece keeps it burning

Through all the showers of sorrows

 

Sometimes the fire is sad

When it's love turns to ashes

Or when it dances for no one

Or when it watches people cry

 

But our fire is glad

We work, we keep it burning

For the sake of happiness

We shall never let it die

 

Come with me and sit by the shadow

The fire will shade our disappointments

And brighten our awareness of

The true importance of now

 

The fire is reality, we are reality

The fire is never ending unless

Left enkindled and forgotten

Neglecting is not our style

 

Without fire there is no warmth

Without love there is nothing

Our hearts burn exchanging love

Our flame is alive! 

 

Holocaust 2

 

The fairyland of commercials

Slaps my face

I wasn't meant to be a hero

6000 at the rail station

The colors create a vivid vision

Yesterdays horrors haunt me

My life so incidental

To mend blood and broken hearts

Barbarous men with swollen smiles

Die in secret solitude

Dreaming realities nightmares

Hump upon hump falling

Calling silently for mercy

At the pinnacle of the unthinkable

The ultimate inhuman atrocity

Crowned, blood-stained victory

 

The vengeance I feel

Too strong to verbalize

Hatred swells my heart

Freedom as close as death

Not dying, severely suffering

Ultimate inhuman persecution

 

Worried about the shape of

Our asses, and smell of our breath

Knowing the horror, terror

Of the most unforgivable

Sins of mankind

 

Forgetting the fall of Rome

Shutting out what is coming

Playing down one horrific bloody

Event that exemplifies and warns

What is happening - blindmen

 

The holocaust isnít over yet

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Holocaust 1

 

The fairyland of commercials

Slaps my face

I wasn't meant to be a hero

6000 at the rail station

The colors create a vivid vision

Yesterdays horrors haunt me

My life so incidental

To mend blood and broken hearts

Barbarous men with swollen smiles

Die in secret solitude

Dreaming realities nightmares

Hump upon hump falling

Calling silently for mercy

At the pinnacle of the unthinkable

The ultimate inhuman atrocity

Crowned, blood-stained victory

 

The vengeance I feel

Too strong to verbalize

Hatred swells my heart

Freedom as close as death

Not dying, severely suffering

Ultimate inhuman persecution

 

We worry of the shape of

Our asses, and smell of our breath

Knowing the horror, terror

Of the most unforgivable

Sin of mankind

 

The holocaust

 

 

   

THE LAST ROSE
 

When I lost your love

I lost my dream come true

I lost every hope on earth

The moment you withdrew

 

Life was not worth living

Nor would it ever really be

Unless one day you returned

To give your love to me

 

My life was lived in sorrow

But most of all regret

I had lost you, my soul mate

I had failed to pass your test

 

Nothing else could compensate

So I played a sad charade

And kept the buried secret

That you and I had played

 

If only there were no movies

No lost love songs to hear

Maybe then I could have forgotten

And stopped the years of tears

 

No matter how I tried

To give my love to another

It was you, my love, only you

Forever, my only real lover

 

Each time the phone would ring

My foolish heart would pray

Let it please be him, oh dear God

It must be him, or I shall die today

 

So many years have passed now

Why do I still love you so

Why do your eyes fall upon mine

With such a tenderness and glow

 

Until today my heart was destroyed

No hope of freedom from my pain

But after the look within your eyes

A certain sunshine replaced the rain

 

Although I know I'll never have you

To caress your tender eyes

Or lay with you on lazy mornings

Or gaze on moonlit skies

 

Although my heart is torn and broken

And the years of loving you are lost

And no longer can I bear your child

Perhaps to me, the greatest loss

 

Somehow I can go on now

As I gaze on your last rose

After all these years, you love me

Together forever? Only heaven knows

 

For Thomas Glen Kerr
 

Life


A leaf appears, a crickets dinner

A cloud burst feeds the infant seed

A beam of sunlight adds to life it's need

A necessary spark to the roots sprouting

A patch of earth gives a homeland freely

 

A leaf appears, the first tree is born

It's birth is celebrated by generations

It grows up strong and tall and proud

It is the tallest of creations

Its pride is kept in quiet greatness

It smiles and waves in gusty winds

It loves the sun, it reaches for him

 

Then one day man was created

Then the earth's nature cried

Then the earliest creatures crumbled

Then man took over

Then the tree, so old and humble

Cried as it fell to the ground and died

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Life 2


A leaf appears, a crickets dinner

A cloud burst feeds the infant seed

A beam of sunlight ads to life it's need

A necessary spark to the roots sprouting

A patch of earth gives a homeland freely

A leaf appears, the first tree is born

It's birth is celebrated by generations

It grows up strong and tall and proud

It is the tallest of creations

It's pride is kept in quiet greatness

It smiles and waves in gusty winds

It loves the sun, it reaches for him

Then one day man was created

Then the earth's nature cried

Then the earliest creatures crumbled

Then when men did override

Then the tree, so old, so humble

Cried, as it fell to the ground and died

 

   

Ocean Sunrise


Her eyes were starting again

But the sunrise over the ocean

Blended my heart and mind

 

Sadness mixed up with new joy

 

The flowers of love were folded

The pages weren't turned back

 

And our smiles were swept

Under the white worldly waves

 

As the sunrise was a new day

No mornings were given

Nor nights taken unwillingly

 

But the autumn seeds were split

And the new blossom wondered

Where to go from here

 

But her soul couldn't let me go

Even now when there's someone else who cares

She contacts my mind

When the sun rises over the ocean

 

 
   

Somewhere My Love


Somewhere My Love

Beneath the pale moon light

There will be happy songs to sing

Under the bloom of a starlit night

 

Somewhere Out There

My heart feels you thinking of me

Hears you wishing on the same lost star

Hoping to find a way for our love to be

 

Somewhere My Love

In a paradise where dreams come true

The snow that covers our hearts and hopes

Will melt and freely reveal the love that grew

 

Somewhere Out There

You'll come to me with love again

Out of a treasured memory you'll return

And at last you will love me without an end

 

Somewhere My Love

The rays of our sun will always shine

The bluebird will write a melody just for us

While we share our love throughout all time

 

Somewhere Out There

My longing prayer will touch your heart

As the angels on high set the stage for love

You will be mine, and never again from me part

 

Somewhere Out There

As the stars glow to light the snow

Tears will shine against my aging face

Remembering the dream of your love I'll never know

 

Think of me now and then, my love

Dreams and memories are all I have of you

 

Think of me now and then, my love

And remember how deeply I still love you

 

 

Somewhere My Love 2
 

Somewhere My Love

Beneath the pale moon light

There will be songs to sing

Under the bloom of night

 

Somewhere Out There

You must be thinking of me

Wishing on the same lost star

Knowing our love should be

 

Somewhere My Love

Out where dreams come true

The snow that covers our hope

Will melt and reveal what grew

 

Somewhere Out There

You'll come to me again

Out of a memory long ago

Our voices once more will blend

 

Somewhere My Love

The rays of our sun will shine

The bluebird will sing loves melody

When we find one another in time

 

Somewhere Out There

My prayer will touch your heart

And you will wonder where I am

Wishing my life to be a part

 

Somewhere My Love

As the stars glow upon the snow

My face will press the window pane

Dreaming of the love I'll never know

 

Think of me now and then, my love

And remember my love so true

Think of me now and then, my love

As I, forevermore, will do of you

 

   

Let Me Call you sweetheart
 

Let me call you sweetheart

Each day my whole life through

And when I go to the other side

I'll wait at the gates for you

 

Let me call you sweetheart

A melody of love I'll sing

Each day for your gentle ways

The joy that your love brings

 

Let me call you sweetheart

And hold your hand in mine

Let me be the one you love

For longer than earth's short time

 

Let me call you sweetheart

My heart yearns to be with you

To caress your lips with love

And build a fantasy brand new

 

Let me call you sweetheart

For in your love I'll sing

There is no one else on earth

That God for me did bring

 

Let me call you sweetheart

Until the end of time

For you are unforgettable

My darling Valentine

 

For Dale Derstine

 
   

Snow in the Mountains

 

There may as well be snow in the mountains

Without your hand to hold, I feel it all over again

There may as well be no heaven to hope for

My death has come living this hell alone inside

 

There may as well be snow in the mountains

Instead of the delicate pink hue of the sunset

For me there can be no beauty on this earth

Because of the circle of sorrow surrounding me

 

There may as well be snow in the mountains

When off we lift from ahigh, life again is gone

Without your love, I am done, my only darling

The mountain may as well be a valley of tears

 

There may as well be snow in the mountains

There may as well be salt in the pounding sea

There may as well be seven alluring wonders

For lovers without busted, bleeding, dying hearts

 

There may as well be snow in the mountains

Just like the last time you broke my heart

There may as well be snow in the mountains

All year long to remind me of the day and the hour

 

That you sucked out my last breath, and killed life for me

 

 
   

A MIRACLE IN PARADISE

 

Where is my paradise

The place within my dreams

Where lovers kiss in moonlight

And make love in sunlit streams

 

With a hand to hold at midnight

Along the golden shore

I need to be a lover in love

Only that, and nothing more

 

Send me a miracle in paradise

Who'll make love so tenderly

And take away the bitter cold

Kiss me and make me free

 

At last my dreams are coming true

You are here with me

I'm letting go of all my pain

As we share our love at sea

 

A miracle in paradise

Don't let it slip away

Our passion is so potent

In the sunset of the day

 

Your tender lips awaken me

I will never be the same

After holding you, my miracle

My fire cannot be tamed

 

My lover in paradise

Nothing means more than you

But this feeling in my heart

I hope you can feel it too

 

Where is my paradise

It's right here in my heart

The moment that I met you

I could feel it start

 

You gave me a new beginning

A hope for things unseen

The words you softly whispered

Ended my searching dream

 

You are my miracle in paradise

My lover with lips of love

Now I know what I've been missing

And praise the stars above

 

But will it last forever

When paradise no longer lives

When you go back home to her

And all that she has to give

 

A miracle in paradise

Don't let it slip away

Our passion is so potent

In the sunset of the day

 

Your tender lips awaken me

I will never be the same

After holding you my miracle

My fire cannot be tamed


My lover in paradise

Nothing means more than you

But this feeling in my heart

Please don't make me blue

 

And when the dream has ended

If you are no longer mine

What will I do with your memory

When our songs no longer rhyme

 

My miracle in paradise

My life is in your hands

My miracle in paradise

It's time to make our plans

 

You are my paradise

The lover of my dreams

You are my hand to hold

My sunset and my streams

 

A miracle in paradise

Within the folds of time

There will never be another

Your paradise is mine

 

 
   

Once Around Once Again

 

Once around once again

Here I am alone again

It wasn't you

It wasn't him

That made me fall apart

It's just the song of a broken heart

 

Once around once again

Here I am alone again

It wasn't her

It wasn't them

That made me fall apart

It's just the song of a broken heart

 

Once around once again

Here I am alone again

Was it me

Was it I

That made it fall apart

Or just the lullaby of a broken heart

 

 
   

Without True Love

 

Without true love

A man could never sing

Without true love

The bells would never ring

 

Without true love

The soul cries deep within

Without true love

 

Yesterday's memories can make you cry

Yesterday's regrets can make you die

Without true love

 

Without true love

The spark has lost it's fire

Without true love

The heart forgets desire

 

Without true love

The birds have lost their choir

Without true love

 

Yesterdays memories can make you cry

Yesterday's regrets can make you die

Without true love

 

 
   

Silver Spoons

 

No silver spoons and sky lit rooms

Are important to me now

Only the love I've left behind

I need it back somehow

 

Why do people live in little squares

Of earth that have no end

Why do people cry for gold and stones

Worth nothing, just to spend

 

Why was your love a shining sword

A piercing promise kissed goodbye

And a heart sorely torn

By just a swift unforgiving sky

 

No silver spoons can heal the wounds

No silver spoons can bring you back

No silver spoons can numb the tunes

Left in my broken heart

 

Yes, no silver spoons nor sky lit rooms

Are important to me now

Only the love you took away

I need it back somehow

 

The lives are just a fairytale

A figment of a play

And soon it will be over

We must awake someday

 

Why was your love a shining sword

A solemn promise, not goodbye

My heart, my heart, my heart is torn

By your cold and swift goodbye

 

No silver spoons

No silver spoons

No silver spoons

 

Can bring you back

 

 
   

destiny

You and I cannot be an accident; we met by design, we met for some mysterious reason like two old kindred spirits who at last found each other again. From the first moment our eyes met, I knew you. Oh, not as ---- from  ------, but from some distant memory far back in millenniums past. We, I believe, have known one another and will always know one another, not in the worldly definition, but in the spiritual one. I love you, -----, not only as a woman and man love each other; but much more than that. I think about you every day and pray you are happy. I miss you every night and wonder if I will ever see you again in this life. Perhaps destiny demands suffering for its gifts. I accept mine with a full heart, for to have found you among all the others, is a little miracle, one I shall never forget. I will remember always how you looked at me with your beautiful eyes, how well you loved me and how leaving you broke my heart. So many wishes linger along the turbulent waves of the sea. If I canít get back to you, I know we will meet again if only among the stars of our next rendezvous where you will again light my path.


You are a man of many colors. I hope you use your charisma wisely and with integrity. You have a power others do not, but such potential requires restraint lest you leave wounds on the world.

What extraordinary resources destiny selects to accomplish its designs. Over a vast ocean, on a foreign island, a world away from my home, I found you. If I could sit across the porch from God, Iíd thank him for lending me you.

 

Judge me not

Judge me not for the broken dreams of another

For busy blindness keeps me fresh

And hides me away in my closet of lies

 

Judge me not for the unseen pain

The forgotten horrors hidden away

Societies deformities alone in cleanliness

 

Judge me not, for my time is taken

I have no time to share, to care

To try to mend the broken dreams of another

 

   

Without Love there is nothing


The breathe of the fire caresses my face

With chills of remembrance

Of cold nights without you

The flames sparkle like your blue eyes

And I wish this moment would burn endlessly

But the reality of the fire is time

It is not everlasting in this rude creation

It awaits no man, but love fires the ages

Tonight's fire is tomorrow's eternity

 

Will we kindle our fire forever remembering death

For death is the end and the beginning

If we are true the flames of love will be born again

Your faithfulness in my splendor

Fill me with your sparkle and take me through the darkness

Our showers of sorrows won't drown our fire

 

Without Fire there is no warmth

Without Love there is nothing

 

 
   

NO OTHER EYES 

How do I express my love for someone with eyes like yours.  Eyes that pierce my own with a depth that kisses the core of my soul, eyes that speak through their silence, speak of a desire that surpasses the senses, and engages the marrow of my being with it's fire. Yours are the eyes that say they were born to love me in just a glance. Yours are the eyes that fill the heavens with cupid's stars to lighten the way to your heart.  Yours are the eyes that no longer direct your soul through the lonely streets of life, but rather lead your glowing aura through the sunrises of our glorious days together. My darling, I love your eyes because they disclose the depth of your being, and let me feel of your goodness and understand your potential.  Those eyes of yours are full of everything I ever wanted in a man, and I revere their kaleidoscope of virtues.  Together our eyes will move forward through our journey together, and if we are willing our eyes will teach us how to love.  Our eyes will teach us how to surpass this moment of ecstasy, and draw out the nurturing sap from the tree of endless love and at last we will understand the true meaning of love in all its glory, and you and I will become one in understanding. Until that day, I pledge my eyes to yours for no other eyes have touched me like yours.  Yours are the eyes I long for, my darling.  Yours are the eyes I love.

 

 
   

OUR LAST GOODBYE

 

All good things must end

Even good love cannot escape

The ends of things, like

days, and plays, and passion

 

Can't we keep it simple

And wrap the good around us

Seal out the daily rhyme of facts

And hold on to that first kiss

 

No, foolish romantic

All good things must end

And what you thought you had

Is lost in the light of reality

 

Oh, that the fantasy will linger

Our pure love can never die

Can the end be the beginning

Sparking another eternal round of good

 

So, keep your spirit open

To good things that must end

In this joy and tragedy of life

You'll see beyond the veil

 

Even past our last good-bye

Lights of Night

 

Illuminating bulbs telling tales

Flickering flames flaunting falsehoods

When gambling men grumble

Groaning over yesterdays' leftovers

The lights will smoke with dawny dreaming

 

Which of them so politely panting

Will win a night of dine and dancing

Wicked words and clacking crystal

Find their way to bedroom whispers

 

Crowds purchasing crowning moments

Running wenches serve them poison

Hoping, hating, hardly waiting

To grasp their golden just reward

 

   

WISHING
 

Wishing in a Hawaiian Sunset

For a blonde haired surfer, rather fine

But his life is in the water

All I want to do is make him mine

 

Wishing in a Hawaiian Sunset

For those blue eyes with a board

How can I ever find him again

Where are the surf boards stored?

 

Wishing in a Hawaiian sunset

For his body strong and young

Why didn't I stop when he smiled

It could have been so much fun

 

Wishing in a Hawaiian sunset

For that surfer that stole my heart

With just a wink and a gorgeous smile

That sexy look that said, let's start

 

Wishing in a Hawaiian sunset

For that blond haired blue eyed babe

Who waved his desire, that look of love

Imagine the love he would have made

 

Wishing in the sunset

Running on the sand

Dreaming on an island

For that fine hunk of a man

 

 
   

GOODBYE LOVE
 

I know you didnít mean to

Break my heart

I know your intent

Was honorable from the start

 

As love goes, however, it happened

You couldnít give yourself to me

Though I had not loved you long

You broke my heart, you see

 

Now I must say goodbye

Or you will break my heart again

Once, shame on you

But twice, shame on me --itís plain

 

I am just glad I understand

Itís better to have loved and lost

Than never to have loved at all

For I know the pain is worth the cost

 

Goodbye love

 

 

LIKE THE SEA

 

People are like the sea

On the surface they seem fragrant and inviting

But underneath they are full of secret hiding places

 

Love is like the sea

On the surface it seems tranquil and alluring

But underneath it pulls you down and drowns you

 

Life is like the sea

On the surface it seems simple, graceful

But underneath it is full of turmoil and complication

 

So why do I love the sea

Because it rushes to the shore with kisses

And shares its' secrets about love and life with me

 

   

Golden Moments

 

One in life is but a dream

Of how golden it can be

But when there's two

We have a scheme, and then

A dream come true

 

Some days before

In shining sunlight

We gazed and dreamed

Of this golden moment

Now here we are

This moonlit night

 

One day beyond this moment

We'll be looking back

And remembering these

Golden moments, and

Then we'll know for

Sure, life is but, loving

 

A Lovely Surprise

 

Life has started all over for me

The young years of happiness

Have come again in a sweeter form

Than a mother could ever guess

 

The love and devotion I gave my child

I thought I could give to no other

But life held a lovely surprise for me

This year I became a GRANDMOTHER

 

   

GONE AWAY

 

Yellow, red, blue, green

Your wave draws my scene

Paradise, your sails dream

GONE AWAY

 

Palms and emotions sway

A dove whispers silent days

You have gone away

GONE AWAY

 

Stirs my hearts song

Love captured, an aura dawn

Does sting so strong

GONE AWAY

 

Blue skies smile alone

Wishing arms clutched the wrong

Soft cheeks near belong

GONE AWAY

 

Is Aloha love intense

Where is the sunset fenced

It was just pretense

LOVES GONE AWAY

 

MISUSED STRENGTH

 

Centuries of cultures, driven by greed

Physical superiority solely convincing

King upon king, men upon men

Rulers over and over

Insatiable

 

Growing further away from the truth

Desiring after lustful pleasure

Trading intelligence's for servitude

Using force for sinful purpose

 

And all the while

Deceiving futures

Transferring the lies through birth

Boys grow into men, accepting examples

Harnessing questionable facts

Quieting truths

Caring not of disintegrating minds

 

The watchful creator painfully viewing

Wondering how this wickedness was made

Hovering over his dominion of horror

He gazed sorrowfully on the sins of man

Unraveling the self-centered mind

The end drawing nearer visions

 

Quietly, humbly females withdrew

Accepting, acquiesces in order to exist

Brutality unpleasant

Love desired

Overpowered by misused strength

She opened not her lips to express

Ideas mounting colorlessly rejected

Allowed she was

As a woman

To speak of love and foolish things

 

Generations of brainwashed beings

All knowing, learned men

Convincing and convincing

Society upon society

Beaten down and silenced

Physical punishment exchanged for

Expression--she acquiesces

 

Piercing the soul of her mind

Pondering "was this God's plan"?

Knowledge given written only by men

Already subjected to lingering concepts

Professing the omniscient knowledge

Answered prayers proved this wrong

Personally visited, the father had said

 

I made men strong to labor in the fields

I made enduring women to labor with spirits

Powers both sacred, yet unique

 

In mind and spirit I made them equal

I am sorry woman for what man hath done

Now she knew

Enslavement and surpressment of the mind

Not made by the Lord, but induced by men

 

Waiting for decency to replace self-centeredness

Only a few hundred years oppressed she suffered

Slowly begging, just a crumb of openness

Yearning to express, to be unleashed

Nearing the end with half-opened truths

Reluctantly releasing the reins

 

He stopped at a distance from acceptance

Still wearing zippered pants

Staring intensely, opening the book

Hearing God's words as an equal man

Instead of an equal human being

He closed the book, sitting erect

Fearful that Deity would make the wrong choice.

 

   

The Hungry Lover

 

A Frenchman on a Mexican shore

Came for a vacation, nothing more

He met a girl with blue-green eyes

They sat and swat away the flies

And watched the hungry and the poor

 

A Frenchman on a Mexican shore

Found out what she had in store

Her gentle touch, her warm embrace

But most of all her special face

They saw the hungry and the poor

 

A Frenchman on a Mexican shore

Fell in love more and more

As vacation end grew very near

He felt frustration and fear

Was touched by hunger and the poor

 

A Frenchman on a Mexican shore

Speaking French and nothing more

Lost his true love by the tide

Of culture shock and suicide

Crying for, the hungry and the poor

Evermore

 

 
   

NO FLYING WINGS

 

Why can't I evade this hunger

This yearning for the sword

When does love pretend a picnic

With broken hearts it can't afford

 

Spinning wheels and webs within us

Only deepens silky memories

And as we hear our sorrow cry

The hurt strikes and floods the seas

 

If only music had no notes

And poems just would not rhyme

Maybe then I could forget you

Somehow, some way, sometime

 

My love has no flying wings

My heart just won't forget

My mind is filled with memories

Of lonely nights and much regret

 

 
   

WHY, MI AMOUR

 

Why, mi amour, must love end

Can't we try, and then pretend

To make of life the perfect fantasy

You once envisioned for you and me

 

Why, mi amour, must I cry

In losing you my heart will die

How can I live with the memory

Of us entwined in love's ecstasy

 

Why, mi amour, must you go

When all I have done is love you so

And danced with you to loves sweet tunes

On sunny sand and cloud swept moons

 

Why, mi amour, must love leave

My mind nor heart can yet conceive

How so much love can change so fast

When I thought that it was meant to last

 

Why, mi amour, must I feel

This trembling pain as I kneel

And ask to shorten life and pain

For without your love, there's not to gain

 

Oh, mi amour, my life must end

Remember, the red roses to send

And as you bend over my somber face

Remember, no one can take your place

 

Oh, mi amour, my life must end

But always remember the love and when

You gaze on ponds and autumn's leaves

Think of me as I become love's last breeze

 

Oh, mi amour, my life must end

If only this pain you would now mend

But you must live your life brand new

Remembering the precious love you threw

 

Away

 

Blinding Sun

 

Did you know

There is sadness beyond your door?

There are hungry children crying

Dying in the streets?

 

Did you know

Babies cry for a reason?

Old folks fade and die in loneliness?

 

Did you know

At your backdoor someone cries

Pleading, begging for a touch?

 

No!  You did not know

You closed your eyes

and soaked up the sun.

 

   

Heaven

 

Heaven is a little house

Where fragrant roses grow

And this is where my heart lies

As my true lover knows

 

Heaven is the place I'd be

With hearth fire burning bright

And candles in the window

To light the way at night

 

For that one I loved with eager eyes

At quarter after seven

To press me close, just once again

To enter into heaven

 

MASS CONFUSION

 

Where can I turn for peace

When mass confusion never seems to cease

And crowds and chaos within my mind

Beat upon the shores I find

 

Shores of love and loss and laughter

With ships of dreams and ever afters

And moons that smile on loves illusion

That fills me up with mass confusion

 

Where can I turn for peace

When love long dead can now increase

And angels fiddle with cupid's bow

Shooting arrows through frozen snow

 

Snow that flurries here then there

Never knowing the victim's dare

While dancing in the chosen heart

The arrow strikes and then departs

 

Where can I turn for peace

While cupid has his arrow feast

And mass confusion fills my world

As roses bloom where once they curled

 

And all at once there's too much love

Too much confusion from above

When dreams come true to late to be

And mass confusion is what's left for me

 

Where can I turn for peace

Where can I turn for peace

Where can I turn for peace

When mass confusion is my beast

 

   

Heavy Heartache Happening

 

During this decade of unrealistic,

Indecisive individuals, we

Find still, the searching for

A lasting meaningful answer to it all

 

Some seek only for prosperity

To feel that flow of gold dust

Running through their fingers.

Is that truly happiness

Not for me

 

For when we leave this heavy

World of ours, do we not

Leave all our earthly

Possessions behind

 

And yet, we must find a purpose

To this preposterous happening.

Maybe it's fame as some would

believe.  But not me

 

Somehow the ominous anxiety

Of death for me has passed

For this heavy heartache happening

Of living has meant little

To me, until now

 

Now I have found in my

Searching; Love.  The only

Worldly treasure we take

All the way home.

 

I found you.

 

 

THE WEB

 

The pasted smiles

Upon their lips

Turn to white

When they are sick

 

The slinky clothes

Jewels of gold

All turn to rags

When they get old

 

Their made up eyes

And frosted hair

Will turn to straw

When no one cares

 

We know the truth

The glitter and gold

Is not important

And they've been told

 

They knew before

But now they're caught

In the web

Of being bought

 

Their hearts are hard

To love, so free

They'll never be happy

Like you and me

 

 

   

LET'S MAKE IT LAST FOREVER

 

I heard a song on the radio

That reminded me of you

Oh, how I wondered if

You missed me, too

 

I saw our quite parking spot

Your face behind the wheel

Oh, how I wondered if

You missed my sex appeal

 

I felt the shirt you left behind

The scent your perfume made

Oh, how I wondered if

Our love would ever fade

 

Let's make it last forever

Forever's too soon to fade

 

Let's make it last forever

This feeling that we've made



I heard a song on the radio

A song for me and you

Oh, how I wondered if

You had heard it, too

 

I saw the door you closed that night

The image of your tears

Oh, how I wondered if

She, your tears, had cheered

 

I felt a knot inside my heart

At your not coming back

Oh, how I wondered if

You felt the same attack

 

Let's make it last forever

Forever's too soon to fade

 

Let's make it last forever

This feeling that we've made

 

Forever, forever, forever,

This feeling that we've made

 

The time

 

The time came, it was a boy

His father passed cigars

Played cards

And passed the bottle

 

He knew it...a boy...he knew

His first and only one of two

They rushed him off to incubator

Smiled and said, "Come back later"

 

At noon he returned with packages

Kimonos, pajamas and a bib

A fluffy white quilt with blue birds

 

The nursery drapes were open

He stood happily a hoping

To see his newborn glorious son

So proud to see what he had done

 

He caught a glance, but thought he'd wait

Until he could hold him and celebrate

He sat beside the mothers bed

They waited patiently, but in stead

 

The doctor and the nursery nurse

We must tell you, tell you first

With grim face, he softly said

We're so sorry, your baby's dead

 

Tears ran down the father's cheek

"Never another child will I mistreat

I was so wrong, I have learned

I've received the pain that I have earned"

 

   

One Marvelous Miracle

 

One burning thought centers my sight

Are you really mine, my precious hero

Will you be there at the mornings light

With every new tide of love's tomorrow

 

At dawn, will I be at peace in your arms

Ever feeling the love we tenderly share

The rare treasure, a kiss of love's charms

The moments whispering how much we care

 

The blue birds will sing our song of rhyme

When our lips express a deep forever

A miracle, a fortune, your hand in mine

When tomorrow brings us at last together

 

Once a thousand miracles well stacked

Couldn't mend my sad and lonely heart

But love anew has changed the sad facts

One miracle, you and me will never part

 

You are my dream come true, love ever after

A miracle I can feel, and touch, and hold

One miracle sent from heaven to mend

The pain, the stain of broken dreams of old

 

Just one miracle from heaven for me

Just one miracle He knew would do

Just one miracle, now I can see

Just one miracle, my love for you

 

Is one marvelous miracle

 

Condemnation

 

Bound

By the chanting chains, my heart racing

Sank into oblivion.  Waste

Flowed freely uncontrolled:  Nightmares not!  This and life are real

Burning sweat

Rolled from my puffed up and reddened eyes

Opened to face the cruelties of my brothers.  My blood drenched hands

Grasped desperately at the blistered earth for freedom.

Cast down among the waiting thorns

Piercing more than a bruised carcass, but

Failing to repress the truth of the soul.

 

Laughing through their golden teeth they

Spoke of decency,

Pervertedly the jeweled bands upon their bodies

Grew!  We'll see no sorrow

Feel no pain with our bags full "they said"

Inlayed instead upon their minds

Imprinted duplicates of seen horrors, unforgivable sins

Locked within to never be

Forgotten by men or Gods, yours or mine.

 

Think no more you time has come

Hurriedly locking hands and feet

Wasting not their profitable time for kindness

Stripped of pride, culture, family,

Rotting in the smell of unbathed corpses

Praying loudly, silently praying

Surrounded by death, humility

Wishing for an end, any end.  I

Lay beside swollen flesh gurgling

Trying short breaths to breathe

Wanting desperately to hold her

Soothe her wounds:  too late for that.

 

Feeling the warmth of her soul depart

Knowing that I would be going soon

Shinned in my eyes one spark of light

Awakened quickly by my rapid breath

Crying, crying for I was not dead

Blackened wet hours

Passed as years

Suffocating within the stench of malicious disease

Sleep was sickening

Rocking unventilated

Waiting to waken

Wishing to sleep forever.  Unlike hibernation the

Waking was sour.  Salt

Splashed violently reviving me often

Saving me for the

Tormenting future.

 

Smelling at last the freshness of day

Seeing faintly for a moment

Awakening to the harshness of humanity

Living is to be shamed, beaten, belittled

Ridiculed, raped and tortured beyond recognition

Repeating: The fullest extent of the law, law?

Blinded by justice, freedom, liberty

Knowing not of these

Fleeing to find my mammy:  she knew

Accepting her fate humbling dying

Bewildered: God had they

Captured you too?

 

Weathered and wrinkled my eyes filled

Realizing it was too late for me

Hoping desperately, in payment of time

Justifying this inhumanity to our children

Mixed by now, the blood of many

Praying they could fulfill my dreams and Mammy's

Finally now, finally He would take me home

Back to freedom, Hallelujah, free at last!

 

   

IT WAS THEN

 

When I saw you standing there

I felt a power beyond your eyes

Something quite unique to men

Like wings of your heart could fly

 

At first I wondered if it was right

The feelings my heart sent racing

Like a sparkle of new sunlight

Through my soul was chasing

 

It wasn't that exceptional smile

Nor your hand within my own

But rather the unspoken words

Whispered from your spirit zone

 

At that moment I knew the truth

I saw more than a man by me

Your spirit fed my mind with all

That you were meant to be

 

It was then I understood the night

It was then I looked beyond your eyes

It was then I knew why it raced

It was then I saw past the skies

 

It was then I knew it must be right

 

 
   

My Beloved

 

Loving You

Loving You

 

So many nights

So many days

 

I have dreamed

of this moment

And now you're here

 

In my arms

My beloved

 

How safe I feel

How warm you are

How I've loved you

From afar

 

My beloved

 

 
   

HEAR THE ANGEL'S SONG
 

Many men have given

Much to many without love

 

Though men may give

To many without love

 

Women are different

 

Women give like angels

Who cannot love without giving

 

Whose gifts are free

Whose love hears the angels song

 

 
   

COME BACK MY LOVE 

 

What is this feeling,

This feeling in my soul

Can you tell me

How it happened

This love

I'll never know

 

Why am I trembling

When I speak your name

Please won't you tell me

I'll never be the same

 

What is this feeling

This feeling in my heart

Oh, can you help me

Can you help me

With a start

 

Why do I love thee

When dreams can't

Come true

Tell me how then

How can I forget you

 

What can I do with

Just a faded memory

Make this love I'm feeling

Have a reason to be free

 

Come back and give me

The love that's in your heart

I know if we try, dear

We can make a brand new start

 

Come back, my darling

Come back, my dear

Come home to Virginia

I always want you near

 

Come back to Virginia

Oh, come back, my love

Come back to the mountains

And bring the stars above

 

 
   

BURNING BRIDGES

 

Hand carved into my bank of memories

Were the eyes that owned my eternities

The arms that possessed my dimensions

And the love that became my obsessions

 

One by one they were etched upon my heart

Like burning bridges before they fall apart

Foolish hopes and dreams of fine tomorrows

With no regard for realities  ghastly sorrows

 

When you took me where you lived I found

That it was to you I was eternally bound

My long search had finally come to end

It was with you, my worlds I would spend

 

There would be no more beaches to roam

Nor nightclubs, nor trolleys, nor bridges alone

For within your eyes the puzzle found  pieces

To form a depth of love with constant increases

 

Within the fold of your neck I smelled the magic

As your hands touched me I lost all sense of logic

And before my mind could extinguish my desire

I became a willing prisoner within your loving fire

 

At that united moment my life was no longer mine

For I had given it to you as a gift of my love sublime

There were no longer two lovers playing alone, you see

For the fragile interlacing of  two created Ďusí to be

 

It was then I understood the lonely footprints in the sand

It was then I knew I was yours as God had surely planned

For you are the wind behind every sail that ever went to sea

You are my highway, my peregrine, my treasure meant to be

 

I am not here on this planet to find great fame and pleasure

I am here to take your hand and teach you of  loveís treasures

And give you the chance to feel how angels love in heaven

And hope that you will keep this gift and give it back times seven

 

No matter how many lifetimes you live, this love calls one time

In a universe of ambiguity this depth of certainty forms a rhyme

And the magnet that creates this strength of love and longing

Cannot help but work itís way toward the place of itís belonging

 

And so my love I beg thee, do not set our bridge a fire

Do not give away my gift of love because of a desire

For bridges bring us heartaches, and yet they set us free

Oh burning, burning bridges please stop, remember me

 

Oh burning, burning bridges can empty hearts on fire

Oh burning, burning bridges can kill my loveís desire

Oh burning, burning bridges have mercy on my need

Donít burn our bridges, love, on bended knee I plead

 

On bended knee I plead                      

 

 

 
   
   

ONE FINAL GOODBYE

 

So this is what happens to love

When itís less than blessed from above

There are no more happy sunshine rays

There is no more light to show me the way

 

How can we still love and say goodbye

Again and again my heart repeats why

But there are dreams that cannot be

And somehow now I can clearly see

 

I cannot build a life on childish hope

Waiting and wanting, how can I cope

Hoping for a fantasy that cannot be

A future of love eternal for you and me

 

So my love, this is my final goodbye

To you and the dreams and the tears in my eyes

I should have known it could never be

Because you never really belonged to me

 

 
   

DEPARTURES & REUNIONS

 

The longing in my departure today

As my heart caught the message in your eyes

Was deepened as you begged me here to stay

And as I heard the tender words of your goodbye

 

It seems that our love is a love unique

To departures and reunions of our smiles and

 Gethsemane's

And from soul love we both yet seek

We bend and mesh loves harmonies

 

When I leave my heart beseeches me

Another moment in your arms

Another moment in the pounding of your sea

Just one lethal injection of your charms

 

I may be gone before your day has dawned

And you have built your tower of seeds

Hoping to find mercy in my palms

While I bask in the wonder of your needs

 

Yes, the departure grunts a sorrow

To others lacking depth of love yet known

Ah, the reunion shapes the wind to blow

The scent of it's flowers never known

Seeds of heavenly flowers, such colors never known

 

And when again your arms tie me to your chest

And our union enlivens my lonely heart

I recall the message of the blessed

The coin is double sided, sorrow and joy apart

 

So weep not at my departure

For love itself seeks to blossom

Where once your sorrow stirred

A reunion of joy will surely come

 

 
   

Someday We Will Meet Again

 

Someday we will meet again

When birds meet in the clouds

When moon and sun both shine

Then we will meet again

 

What happened to the rain

What happened to the snow

What happened to the birds

Why don't they sing any more

 

Someday we will meet again

When rivers flow upstream

When lovers cease to dream

Then we will meet again

 

What happened to the kiss

What happened to the love

What happened to the life

That once did sing for me

 

Someday we will meet again

When flowers cease to bloom

When young girls cry in vain

Then we will meet again

 

What happened to my man

What happened to my mind

What happened to my life

Why won't it ring for me?

 

 
   

Loves Reality

 

How can you and I understand

This game of life we play

How can we win,

And not lose our way

 

When we find the perfect

Love of one for all eternity

 

Our heart is filled with a joy

Unknown to most humanity

 

That's when the game becomes

A game we can win

Because we found our way

What a lovely way to win the game

 

Through pure reality

The way to win

Through loves reality

 

Once we know

What a way to win

Through loves reality

 

 
   

UNTIL THEN

 

Iíll have a blue, blue Christmas without you

Iíll be so lonely recalling the love we knew

How can I live this merry season all alone

When your love within my heart Iíve sewn

 

Christmas eve will find me by the glowing fire

With recollections of our passion and desire

Alone I will ponder when I will see you again

Praying for just one more chance for our love to blend

 

Sleigh bells will be ringing to the sound of a lovers kiss

And I will be dreaming of every moment Iíve missed

Every moment Iíve missed within the warmth of your arms

Every moment Iíve missed within the bond of your charms

 

And as I watch the snow falling upon the foothills

I will reproduce the vision of us in a life fulfilled

Where distance no longer separates us from our dream

And life will become more in that day than it ever seemed

 

And as I dream within the white Christmas of my mind

I will think of the words you spoke to me of love sublime

And as I smile at the recollection I will cry for your touch

Not because my pain is great, but that I could love so much

 

Someday there will be a star in the east for us

Someday we will no longer have hearts of dust

Some Christmas day will be ours to love and share

What a joy will fill our hearts as we show how we care

 

So my darling, as the silver bells fill your season

Remember all these challanges have their reasons

And one day when our eyes our opened to dreams

We will know that our love is even greater than it seems

 

Until then...

Until we meet again...

Remember how much I love you

And pray for the day weíll be together again

 

 
   
marriage happiness
   

TO MY HUSBAND ON OUR WEDDING DAY

 

What is in a Wedding Gift

From a woman now your wife

How can a trinket alone express

What only can be said with a soft caress

 

There are no things of worldly good

To tell you what I think I should

From my heart so full tonight

My soul expands with pure delight

 

At last your mine, my darling

To have and to hold my starling

To always be my man, my stay

How could there be a brighter day

 

Now you are my husband dear

Now there will be no more tears

Only sunshine will kiss my days

As we snuggle together in tender ways

 

Thank you for your precious gift

Of love and desire and happiness

Please accept this little verse

A token of gratefulness unrehearsed

 

For your gift of love

 

I love you

 

HAPPINESS IS BORN

 

Cast away your pain

Cast away your sorrows

Don't' think your life is bad

Don't think your life is sad

 

Make yourself a winner

Make yourself a hero

Wake up to the sunshine

Wake up to a world that's fine

 

Happiness is born

inside you

 

Give yourself away

 

Happiness is born

inside you

 

Make a happy day

 

Cast away your wanting

Cast away your sins

Think of what you can be

Think of what you can see

 

Make yourself a messenger

Make yourself a spirit

Wake up to the morning

Wake up to the warning

 

Happiness is born

inside you

 

Give yourself away

 

Happiness is born

inside you

 

Make a happy day

 

   

THE WEDDING RING

 

Life is a circle of golden choices

Just like this ring offers a dozen courses

 

Life has no beginning, nor an end

Only challenges and changes for us to blend

 

As you wear this symbol of love

Remember the circle began in Heaven above

 

All of life's endless treasures

Must be cherished with no small measures

 

Love is the ultimate gift of life

Pamper it tenderly to secure it's flight

 

Wear this display of your devotion

While you never forget this moment's emotion

 

The circle may lead you to your destiny

If you remember to consider your actions carefully

 

Never forget the precious gift you share

Honor and love and treasure the ring you now bear

 

For tomorrow's circle of eternity

Is where your love can blossom eternally

 

 
   

I PROMISE

 

When cupid placed your hand in mine

He knew our hearts would blend

He knew that we would fall in love

By the angels he did send

 

The moment that the arrow left

That fluffy cloud up in the sky

And pierced my heart with honey love

I knew our love would never die

 

Every moment since I met you

My life has been a dream come true

And now that you will be my wife (husband)

Forever I will love and cherish you

 

My darling, I adore the way you look at me

That sweet look in your eyes melts my heart

And helps me see forever within your arms

Knowing without a doubt we'll never ever part

 

As I stand before the folks who care

I make a promise from my heart

To always give more than my share

And try my best from the very start

 

I promise to bend my ways

To do my part to keep the dream

I promise to care, to listen, to grow

To make it even better than it seems

 

And as we grow older together

My love, may I promise thee

To cherish this love as a beauty

And never from it flee

 

I promise forever after today

To give my heart and soul to you

Throughout our lives together

Here on earth and in heaven, too

 

"For every thorn, a petaled rose"

 

Once when I was a little child

A thorn had pierced my skin

And mother kissed the pain away

Like the Savoir cloaks our sin

 

Once when I was a little child

The thorns were scarcely there

But as I grew into the world

They didn't seem so rare

 

Once when I was just sixteen

A thorn had pierced my heart

The only cure seemed death at best

And then I fell apart

 

Once when I was just sixteen

A friend, whose care was true

Gave to me a precious rose

Which spoke of life brand new

 

Once when I was all grown up

The sun refused to shine

But through the dreary clouds

A ray of hope I'd find

 

Once when I was all grown up

My son became a rose

And through his love, each petal gave

Hope, and strength to fight the foes

 

For thorns peak out and let us feel

For every thorn a petaled rose

Heaven scents and natures colors

Secret drifts from what God knows

 

 

When your blue has turned to grey

And loneliness pricks your heart

Remember it's a testing ground

For your grandest play and part

 

The thorn is the world's interview

The rose, a treasure of certainty

Nothing more than your very own

Dress rehearsal for eternity

 

 

   

IF I COULD PAINT MY LOVE

 

If I could paint a picture of my love for you

It would have the most majestic landscape

Complete with oceans and rivers and falls

 

There would be a tropical sunset and a beach

And you and I would be there making love

Kissing all alone under the resting sun

 

A rainbow would appear in front of evening stars

And as the soft hues faded into the darkest night

Our moon would smile at the love I offered you

 

Then I would wipe the sand from your shoulders

And pull you by the hand, laughing as I pushed

You down again into the sand and covered you

 

Not with the sand, but with my body of endless love

Together alone under the stars I would raise you

And we would be one in body, mind, and rapture

 

If I could paint my love

 

My House of Life

 

Give me wide walls to build

My house of life

 

The North to be Love against

The winds of fate

 

The South of Tolerance

That I may outreach hate

 

The East of Faith, that

Rises new each day

 

The West of Hope that dies

A glorious way

 

The threshold 'neath my

feet shall by Humility

 

Give me wide walls to build

My house of life

 

   

BRIDE'S WEDDING VOWS

In my dreams, how often I have sailed in the ocean of your love, dreaming of this day, the first day of the destiny of our endless love.  My sails are full set upon the adventure upon which we now embark, the journey of love divine, love eternal.  Love and love only has directed our course upon these waters for it has found our love worthy, and now we must melt our love like a running brook flowing through a land of enchantment, and merge our lives as the river and the sea.  Let us sing the ancient melody of love everlasting knowing the joy and pain of too much tenderness as the white doves deliver loves secret treasures to our humble ship, and then fly free to the heavens, returning with only the love in their hearts, as someday we also will.

 

May the glow of our new morning shine upon our ship of life, while our love becomes a 'moving sea between the shores of our souls', and the daybreak harkens to the whispers of our winds pleasure, that we may once again awake together at dawn with winged hearts giving thanks for one more day of loving, and after the day is done, slumber together with a prayer in our hearts that our joy may be as endless as the grains of sand on the shores of eternity.  Through eons of time our ship of love will carry us forward as each tender word seals the memory of the moment in the heart of God, and as we bend our sails in the wind of our differences, abandoning lives challenges for more worthy destinations. The season of love conquers all with it's songs of praise on our lips, and its traditions of warmth in our hearts.

 

≠____, your love has beckoned my heart, and my heart has followed.  From this day forward my soul will bond with your soul, as I promise to be your helpmate, your best friend, your wife.  Within our sea of love I will tarry the rest of my life with but one burning desire--the desire to fill you with the joy of my adoration, that you may always look upon me with the same exceeding tenderness I now see in your gentle eyes.  A tenderness that cannot be bought or replaced by all the riches of the world, a tenderness that demonstrates the soft love you now offer.

 

As we now stand before these witnesses and vow to interlock our hearts and lives, I think of our love as a blossoming rosebud in the fresh dew of the morning, and pray that our love will always remain as fragrant as the everlasting perfume of the new rose.  As you take my hand from this alter, I will follow you, I will depend on you, and I will cherish you.  But most of all, I will always, always love you.

 

Yours by the seashore, and everywhere,

 

 
   

WAIT FOR HIM

 

To see the world in a grain of sand

Is how I feel when I hold your hand

To envision heaven in a tender flower

Cannot express my love for you each hour

 

If I could hold infinity within my palm

It could not replace loveís sweet psalms

If the world was mine for just one hour

I would trade it all for loveís fresh flowers

 

Oh, how gladly my soul recalls

The moment when my heart did fall

Oh, the beginning of sun and moon

The whole world sang a happier tune

 

The loving touch and warm embrace

That precious smile upon your face

The feel of loving lips upon my cheek

That charmed my heart and made me weak

 

Your love has pumped new life in me

For now I am your wife to be

Your touch, your hope, your tenderness

Makes me feel especially blessed

 

How much I would give for just one hour

To be wrapped with you in loveís bright power

How weak the power of human kind

When another hour we cannot make or find

 

Sweetheart, the one whoís soul Iíll abide

Please wait for me and be my guide

To more than bliss in lifeís short span

Take me toward the celestial plan

 

Sweetheart, I know if we do our share

He will help us our burdens to bear

For as much as my being is filled with you

Our pledge of love to Him is due

 

Sweetheart, if we love Him together

Our lives and love will be so much better

So as we wait with our bittersweet pain

We must remember all there is to gain

 

 

Sweetheart, virtue and honor and sacrifice

Is the least we owe to our precious Christ

The day will come and weíll walk the aisle

Knowing we caused our redeemer to smile

 

During that hour of vows so sweet

It will be as if we alone kneel at His feet

Offering our all to prove our love

For all He has waiting for us above

 

As we wait may God bless our display of devotion

And bring us together once more

 

 
   

WHY NOT ME

 

Do the tropics speak of love

When they sing their saddest song

And tears fall from their skies

On my heart that weeps so long

 

Your twinkling razor of rusted love

Has left my soul to torch and bleed

Yet through the pain and the tears

There is still that desperate basic need

 

Oh, how I miss that chocolate kiss

That could have helped me through tonight

How lonely is this love you missed

Gone was all with you, at dawns new light

 

But why

Why not then

Why not now

And most of all

Why not me

 

 
   

WHY

 

Why does my heart triple beat

Why do tears fall from the skies

Why do clouds pour down on me

Why did I drown in your eyes

 

Why does this pain hurt so bad

Why can't I forget this memory

Why is my life so damn sad

Why did you do this to me

 

Where's that chocolate kiss

That's suppose to last forever

Who say's dream are bliss

When men can be so clever

 

Why does my heart fall apart

Why do tears drench my face

Why didn't I see it from the start

Why can't my mind leave this place

 

Why does my heart break so hard

Why won't my mind lock you out

Why did the devil shuffle my cards

Why did he fill you full of doubt

 

In my dream your eyes met mine

With sweet forgiving and love anew

But it seems I've lost all track of time

And the color of love is black and blue

 

Why must my heart be shredded

Why does this emotion cry

Why is my song so dreaded

Why can't this pain just die

 

Why didn't you understand

Why did you plan to test me

Why did you change the plan

Why didn't you hear my plea

 

Where is the sunshine in the sand

The spirit once shining in your eyes

The breeze between our clinging hands

The kiss, the touch, the love we sighed

 

Why was it so wrong to be in love

Why not feel your tenderness on me

Why did you break my heart of love

Why did you kill our life to be

 

Why do I wander, hope, and pray

Why do love stories make me cry

Why don't I understand the play

Why do I want to end it all and die

 

It wasn't just the lonely hours

It was the longing for your favors

It was the night and the power

That made me, your love savor

 

So

When the moon is full

And in your mind I appear

Remember us, and pretend

We are kissing still

 

And I will be remembering, too

 
   

FLYING WINGS 1

 

When will birds ever sing again

When will night time go away

When will I be free of you my love

When I've begged you here to stay

 

My love has no flying wings

My heart just won't forget

My mind is filled with memories

Of lonely days and such regret

 

If only music had no notes

And poems just would not rhyme

Maybe then I could forget you

Somehow, some way, sometime

 

 
   

When all the world is gone

 

Oh, silver spoons and sky lit rooms

Seem so important now

But love between two souls

Is all the counts somehow

 

So when it comes again

If it ever does that is

Stop your life and look around

It's something not to miss

 

For life is little neutrons

That don't last very long

And memories are all that's left

When all the world is gone

 

And people live in little squares

Of earth that have no end

Yet cast off love with a sigh

Without ever knowing him

 

Their lives are just a fairy tale

A figment of a play

And soon it will be over

They must awake one day

 

Then you'll know that it was me

That could have changed your day

Then you'll know that I loved you

And it wasn't so hard to say

 

 
   

When I fall in love
 

When I fall in love

It will be forever

When I love him true

I will leave him never

 

When I give my heart

It will be completely

I will feel it in his touch

As he kisses me so sweetly

 

When I fall in love

It will be like thunder

When he holds me near

The earth will move down under

 

Now the storm is coming

I sense it as I shiver

The feeling when he's near

Like the pounding of the river

 

Something tells me this is love

To feel his hand in mine

The beauty of his gentle eyes

The moment when our hearts entwined

 

When two lovers feel so strong

Only we have loved like this

Maybe it's more than love we feel

It's more than the tender kiss

 

Oh, my love

Close your eyes tonight, and

Dream of my love by you

Feel the joy as two souls embrace

And pray that our dream may come true

 

That we might fall in love forever

 

 
   
birth patriotic
   

All too Soon

I hold the joy of life in my hands.  The tender softness of her

newborn skin warms my heart as rapidly as the morning sun

warms a frosty meadow.  Her tiny eyes, blue as the deepest

ocean open wide to engulf the newness of life.  So small, so

new, this infant of mine.  All too soon, she will be grown, and

I will hold up my hands and remember the day she fit between

 them.

 

America

 

America is God's country

It is the promised land

of Pilgrims seeking freedom

Found in the palm of His hand

 

America is God's country

My allegiance I give to thee

That I may have this glorious

Place to live and be free

 

America is God's country

Overflowing choices to choose

Our very own Garden of Eden

A paradise we must not lose

 

America is God's country

My heart beats strong for you

After seeing a world of hunger

I cried to come home to you

 

America is God's country

They are beating down our doors

To have a little piece of the dream

A blessing that is already ours

 

Thank God for America  

 

   
 

Wheel of Fortune

 

Wheel O Fortune

Turn for me

Won't you stop

On Number three

 

If you'll just let me

I'll play all night

But first you must

Do what's right

 

Let me win

Let me win

Let me win

Tonight!

 

   
   
   
social death
   

Who Am I?

 

Am I the old German man

Who cuttith sticks on Sunday,

Swept into eternal imprisonment?

 

Am I the woman with swollen lips

And a missing eye inflicted

By my husband, the sun?

 

Am I the thief who stole

The cabbage on Christmas eve?

 

Am I the one who blocked the path

To church with brambles and thorns?

 

Or am I the old Chinese man

Who binds marriages with

A silken cord?

 

I am none of these you see

I am just an image seen

From your eyes, on the moon.

I am the image of you.

 

WINGS OF DEATH

 

How does it feel to be

Nothing more than a sin

And a test for the best

 

How does it feel to be

A lesson to have conquered

A heart too blind to guess

 

How does it feel to be

Dined upon at the dinner hour

But forgotten as life is blessed

 

How does it feel to be

Drank and savored with delight

Until all needs are fully stretched

 

How does it feel to be

Left a cepher in the snow

As your mask is torn and etched

 

How does it feel to be

The victim of dead dreams

When each step was painfully sketched

 

How does it feel to be

The cross beneath the king

Laid to rest in a potters ditch

 

How does it feel to be

Discarded ointment for a soul

After soothing the sinners itch

 

How does it feel to be

Dead within a living thing

With no aim, nor dream, nor nitch

 

It feels like your guts

Were sucked out and splattered

Worms are eating the last of your senses

While the wings of death are all that matters

 

The wings of death

The wings of death

The wings of death

Will sail my heart to freedom , at last

 

   

USELESS COLLECTIONS

 

Why do we buy, buy, buy

Buy, buy, buy, until we die

Buying many useless things

Things to later wrap with strings

 

We think this youth will never end

End it does and with such pain

Pain of loosing the last of youth

Youth tied up in endless buying

 

Acquiring lots of things, things, things

Things, things, things, useless things

Sparing children, less important

Important are those things, things, things

 

They pile up till we are ninety

Tidy then in cardboard cartons

Pilled high in someone's attic

Fat trick life played on us

 

Thinking of the good old days

Days of buying, collecting barrels

Barrels of broken useless dreams

Dreams that crumble with age

 

Age crumbles dreams and things

Things that beautify society

Defy realness of love and creation

Creation of the flesh and soul

 

 

Execution

 

I stared solemnly at his somber face

As I prepared for the ending moment

To which I was to address myself

As a swollen cloud opens upon

An unexpected cove with a flash flood

 

Unusually pressing against my mind

Were thoughts of promises promised

Yet never more to exist or be fulfilled

Made into lies by absolute tongues

Of men possessed by intolerance

And power from which he was dying

 

Then she appeared, attaching her

Melancholy eyes to his in a fixed gaze

The guards placed her in position

She shook horribly with pleading eyes

Cast upon her lover.  Her eyes closed:

I aimed, hesitated for a moment

Trying to pretend God wasn't watching

Then I fired and the dam burst

From her lovers eyes

 

   

Working

 

The pasted smiles

Upon their lips

Turn to white

When they are sick

 

The slinky clothes

Jewels of gold

All turn to rags

When they get old

 

Their made-up eyes

And frosted hair

Will turn to straw

When no one cares

 

They knew before

But now they're caught

In the web

Of being bought

 

Their hearts are hard

to love so free

They'll never be happy

Like you and me

 

Only One

 

Your spirit that is filled with pain

Is felt so deeply by your friend

Although no one can ease your heart

A feeling friend can do a part

 

To lose your best friend and mother

Such sorrow could not be known to others

Especially a mother so dear as yours

One that loved you so, throughout her years

 

Looking back through all the days

You can recall her gentle, loving ways

All the joy you knew being together

That joy and love will go on forever

 

Your pain and tears will always flow

Until again your mother you know

Until that day you'll need a friend

A special friendship that will never end

 

Someone who knows you and understands

Someone who can help you make your plans

To greet your dear mother once again

And hold your hand through life's short span

 

Only one can fill that need

Only one can hear inner pleads

Only one has felt these deep pains

Only one can bring you home again

 

There's only one pain worse than yours

That is the pain a mother endures

When her dreams and hopes of eternal things

Die the death that spiritual death brings

 

For all things there is a season

For all things there is a reason

Faith in Christ and a willing heart

Will give your soul a spiritual start

 

Then take his hand all the way home

His path will lead you through the storm

Your heart will swell with sweetened truth

And you'll find joy and happiness in youth

 

Let Him be your guiding star

And your mother will not seem so far

You will feel her love through Him

Until at last you'll be together again


For Shawn

   
 

The Waiting Is Over

 

He lives in a shack at the top of the hill

It's late, it's late, it's getting late

He looks and breathes as if he's ill

I wait, I wait, I hate to wait

 

And if he is he will surely die

And I, not I, will hold his hand

And he will die, die!  But why

Must I, yes I, hold his hand?

 

Well, if your sick then you will die

And they will come and tell me

But why, oh why, must you die

As I kneel here before thee?

 

I want to pray in your little shack

It's late, it's late, it's getting late

Why pray now, your death is fact

I wait, I wait, I hate to wait

 

 

   
 

THE HOUR GLASS

 

The hour glass, the hour glass

Measures precious minutes of life

As trembling beads of sweat

Follow one another through the strife

 

The bottomless pit is minutes away

And gravity certain in it's direction

Like the Devil in his notion

Devours, defeats, destroys perfection

 

Innocent beauty produces misery

As the passage becomes congested

And all that seems to be is not

But a message much infected

 

When at last frost is all the matters

And all the hopes and dreams are dead

The hour glass of life sadly shatters

From the frozen, broken heart and head

 

   
 

One Child

 

Once when life was sweet and new

He played among the hills

Once when life had just begun

And life had yet been tilled

 

Once when life was sweet and young

He strummed guitar and played a tune

Once when life had just begun

He wandered under stars and moon

 

Once when life was just unwrapped

His smile kissed glowing eyes

Once when life had just begun

He gazed at clear blue skies

 

Once when life was just a key

He found his gentle song

Once when life had just begun

His drum played a differant throng

 

Once when life was sweet and new

He kissed her cupid cheeks

Once when life had just begun

His baby she did weep

 

Once when life was on it's way

He played his girl a note or two

Once when life had just begun

He heard her pleasant coos

 

Once when life had come at last

He walked with her one eve

Once when life had just begun

He sat her on his knee

 

That one child did give him joy

That one child gave love to life

That one memory of child so sweet

Surely will never pass

 

That was surely pleasant joy

The joy of Dad and girl

That was surely memory sweet

When life is gone at last

 

Written for Uncle Howard Greene's funeral 1988

 

   

abortion?
 

To build a web

To write a poem

To make a cake

To wear a thorn

 
To be a child

To be a dog

To be a mother

To be a frog

 

To say a word

To speak a thought

To tell a story

To lie a lot

 

To develop a vaccine

To create a song

To invent a skateboard

To get a long

 

To study to make

To think to build

To feel a feeling

To have a will

 

To crawl to play

To walk to school

To run to work

To rock to sleep

 

To live in peace

To fight in war

To choose the fate

To die before

You live?

 

Where have you gone my child?

 Where have you gone , my child?

 

I've gone to a glistening beautiful place

All filled with crystal and golden lace

Where the whitest cloud kisses the wind

And God's pure love seeps within

 

Where have you gone, my child?

 

I've gone over the rainbow and home again

To kneel and pray and sit by Him

In His celestial home on high

Singing songs of sweet forgiving and lullaby's

 

Where have you gone, my child?

 

I've gone to a homemade nest in the sky

The colors of which would gladden the eye

And feelings of peace and love and joy

Are gifts given freely to each girl and boy

 

Where have you gone, my child?

 

I've gone where golden halos and angel wings

Surround cherub cheeks with special things

And crystal carpets watch with love

Giving peace to glistening eyes above

 

But, where have you gone, my child?

 

I've gone to rest where the white dove flies

Where perfection is sweet in angel eyes

Where time is non-existent to me

And precious things are given free

 

But, where have you gone, my child?

 

I've gone to the place you told me of

My fathers mansion just above

And here I'll be waiting just for you

To come and hold me close to you

 

But, where have you gone, my child?

 

I've gotta go, Mommy, but see you soon

When all the butterflies come out at noon

You'll see me too; in every heart

But secretly we will never part

 

Have you gone, my child?

 

Yes, I am going, but I'll always be near

With deep love in my heart for my family dear

For we each know that we'll eternally be

One truly chosen family

 

My child...

 

Don't weep Mommy, Daddy dear

I'll be watching over you, don't fear

We'll all be cuddling in heaven again

When Heavenly Father brings you two in

 

My child...

 

The hours has come and I must go

To that wonderful place of which you know

Once again I'll sit on his knee

And now and then give him a key

 

Sweet child.

 

I'll sing Him a song in ever soft tones

And blink at the shine of His golden throne

Come...come I will;  to hold your hand

When it's your turn to enter His land

 

 

   
 

Eternal Love

 

Think of me as a child

When sad times were mild

When every dream was so exciting

Everyday was so inviting

 

Remember me as a girl

My life was smooth as a pearl

My young heart was in flight

Filled with hopeful young delight

 

Wasn't I just sixteen

When all that counted was the team

And my foolish shouts filled the house

Knock 'em, knock 'em, knock 'em out

 

Yesterday was just a moment ago

When future dreams seemed so slow

I remember my heart a pitter patter

And Mom asking me what was the matter

 

Oh, I dreamed even day and night

Hoping they would all turn out right

Home, husband, and family

That's all that really mattered to me

 

Deep in prayer I prayed for you

My wee little children before you knew

Your Mom was praying for precious sons

And a little girl would be so fun

 

But it wasn't until I held you close

That I knew I loved you each the most

When I leaned to tuck you in each night

That's when I knew it turned out right

 

My days were filled with joy by you

Even the little tuffs we knew

It was that special love we shared

That made me know how much you cared

 

When two hearts love as much as we

We will never be alone, you see

No parting can stop our hearts

No veil of forgetting will keep us apart

 

The soft clouds have wings above

And I have flown into their love

But my soul remembers for sure

That our special love is forever pure

 

Think of me as a child, a girl

Remember me each time you twirl

And cry not that your mother is gone

Because I'll be with you in every song

 

Every evening I'll be up there

Up in the heavens, the heavens so fair

And if you'll look up just before dark

You'll find me right there in your heart

 

Every wish upon a star

Will have my blessing from afar

And every rainbow that you see

Will have a special tint from me

 

Please, for me, stay true to the faith

So we will meet in that special place

Where families join hands eternally

And we'll be together for eternity

 

Our love will never die, my sweet children

 

   
 

One in a million

Once a babe in a mothers arms

Just like any other

Once a child with cupid charms

The first joy of his mothers

 

A little boy with golden hair

And sweet, caressing eyes

Grew to be a youth so fair

And yet a man so wise

 

A son so dear, a brother best

His family by his side

Todd went on his mission blessed

Over the ocean he did glide

 

Only one in a million have

That spirit and that glow

Only one is a million

'That' we will always know

 

Once across that great blue sea

He fell in love it's true

With the Portuguese people and a little girl

Who's eyes were shiny blue

 

He loved the land, he loved the Lord

And his home was in his heart

The love he had for his family was stored

Way down deep in a special part

 

Only one in a million know

That spirit and that glow

Only one in a million

Todd, was one we know

 

When he had reached that pure estate

And God took him under his wing

Rainbows danced and trumpets played

And all of the angels sang

 

Only one in a million, Todd

Have your spirit and your glow

I need your help with others, son

You'll see you loved ones again, you know

 

One in a million missionaries

Make Heavenly Fathers chosen list

One in a million missionaries

Will ever be missed like this

 

Written for the funeral of Todd Hunt  (1986-87), son of Roger Hunt. He was shot and killed in Portugal while serving a mission for the LDS church

 

   
 

I
 

I stub my toe

I drown in noise

I cry in silence

See the toys

 

Of grown men knowing

The passion of sex

The joy of a baby

I feel perplexed

 

I taste the blood

Upon my Tongue

The sorrow of death

Can I overcome

 

Morality of uncertainty

Beating on my chest

I close my eyes

Continue life's nest

 

Birth pursues breathe

Breathe creates soul

I die, to live again

Within the vowel of

I

   
faith

farewell

   

A Simple Shepherd Boy

 

My eyes shed tears when I was three

One eve as my mother taught of Thee

My tender heart embraced the love

That she said would come from above

 

When I was six and on my knee

I prayed that He would answer me

When the answer came, I knew then

I would never be the same again

 

Father made me a shepherd when I was ten

I roamed the hillside to sheep attend

Father said to be still and ponder

The meaning of life and all of its wonder

 

The smell of the meadow flowers were sweet

It lingered all day as I watched my sheep

The warmth of the sun caressed my cheeks

As it softly drifted off to sleep

 

The evening breeze wandering by

Brought with it the darkening sky

The sheep were lowing on the hills

And the night was soft, calm, and still

 

My heart was full of quiet delight

As the stars shown so brightly that night

My soul was happy, my life at peace

As my head laid softly upon the fleece

 

So glad was I, a simple shepherd boy

A blanket of grass, the country joy

So glad not to be busy with city things

And just to hear the sheep bells ring

 

The distant glow of the city lights

Twinkled oh so bright that night

The little fire kept me toasty warm

As I gazed upon the sleeping farms

 

Just as I turned on my feather bed

I thought I heard a voice who said

Just a small, simple shepherd boy

But he will understand the joy

 

When I looked up the light grew bright

It was an angel, then many, oh the site

When then I heard their voices ring

My heart, my heart began to sing

 

The voices sand of the promised One

That this was the night that He would come

The story, the story my mother had told

Tonight, tonight it would unfold

 

In my awe as I looked to the sky

I saw the star by me near by

In great profusion shone to me

I knew it led where He would be

 

I knew it then, that I must go

And even my sheep they did know

I beckoned my pup to keep them safe

Until I returned from seeing His face

 

The splintered rays of radiant light

Across the hillside the dark grew bright

The angel sang a beckoning song

And motioned me to come along

 

The road was long, we traveled far

At times I could not see the star

The night was cold, but I was warm

My heart could tell that He was born

 

It was only a simple nativity scene

But a sweeter face I will never see

It was the Babe, He's come at last

Upon His face my tearful eyes were cast

 

And then it happened, just to me

Mary let me hold her baby

And tears streamed down my cheeks

For He was so tiny, so mild, so meek

 

I knew it then, that golden night

That I had beheld a God so right

I knew His eyes had touched my soul

And I would n'er again be cold

 

His celestial light glowed in the stable

A homeless Babe, but not a fable

His tears were not a baby's cry

For someday He, for us, would die

 

And through my life I'll remember

The baby Jesus there in the manger

And I know now as I did then

That He was the king of Bethlehem

 

The Christ Child, The Savoir of the World 

 

 
   

AT YOUR FEET AGAIN

 

Oh, that my sinful heart

May yet be blessed, dear Lord

With pure, unselfish intent

That only your way can afford

 

Oh that my eyes be opened

That my selfish heart repent

And come to be more like thee

From whom all love is sent

 

Oh that my mind be filled

With more of your sweet love

That I may touch the world

And bring your souls above

 

Oh that my hands be cleansed

From all my selfish deeds

And worldly choices so impure

That crucify my needs

 

Oh that my soul be touched

Like the spirit your music does

That I may have that feeling

That smooth comfort of your dove

 

Oh that my feet will take me

To your love, your mind, your ways

That I may be your instrument

To bless your children's days

 

Oh, that my life will change

That I may always do your will

And fight off my selfish traits

That love will abide me still

 

Oh, that my 'all' will love thee

That thou would forgive my sins

For my only true desire, dear Lord

Is to kneel at your feet again

 

 
   

All That Matters

 

All that matters is to believe

In this moment of time

In this hour you may retrieve

Believe the light of your mind

 

You can be all you want to be

In this moment of time

Open your minds eye and see

The magic there in your mind

 

All that matters is to believe

All that matters is to conceive

All that matters is to retrieve

The light of your destiny

 

Why not stand and face the day

In this moment of time

Stand up straight, in focus stay

No time to waste your mind

 

All that matters is to believe

Reach down within your mind

The promise lies in lights relief

That only you can find

 

All that matters is to believe

All that matters is to conceive

All that matters is to retrieve

The light of your destiny

 

All that matters is to believe

In this moment of time

You have the power to conceive

Within the light of your mind

 

You can be what you want to be

In this moment of time

You can see what you want to see

If you can control your mind

 

All that matters is to believe

All that matters is to conceive

All that matters is to retrieve

The light from eternity

 

Where Angels Play

 

T'was the night before Christmas

And all through the land

Carolers were brightening lives of the sad

And parents were filling stockings as planned

 

Silver edged red and green wrapping paper

Eggnog and family by the fire

The snow flocked twinkling Christmas tree

Fills my lonely heart with desire

 

"I'll be home for Christmas"

If only in my dreams

The holiday songs of season joys

Don't cheer me, or so it seems

 

I guess its cause I'm missing you

My son, so far away

I surely miss the sweetest smile

I haven't seen in quite a day

 

On frosted morns remember me

Your mother who loves you dear

Your wondrous life, a gift divine

You are my favorite Christmas tear

 

Thank you for your kindness

Your goodness and your love

Thank you for finding yourself

Through Jesus Christ above

 

Throughout my day left to me

This Christmas will always shine

Because of my first sons mission call

And the glorious work sublime

 

This special day my heart will be

More full than all the rest

Full of sadness missing you

But joy, a joy yet expressed

 

So my son, if loneliness strikes your heart

Remember this Christmas mine will be

Meeting yours where angels play

And soon the year will flee

 

for Dewayne Smith 1989

 

   
 

My Princess

 

We lived  in a house

Just my mother and Priny

She was my best friend

My only sibling

 

She was my shadow

We laughed and cried

We went everywhere

Side by side

 

Her eyes sparkled

When she looked at me

As if she knew

We were meant to be

 

She placed her paw

Upon my head

With soft persuasion

Put me to bed

 

She slept with me

When nights were cold

Or when she knew

I had a heavy load

 

She was the best person

I've ever known

For all the love

That she had shown

 

Although twenty years

Have quickly passed

My heart still quickens

When I'm ever asked...about Priny

 

   

The Seasons Tune

 

Like the summertime

Just like the autumn breeze

Life is never ending

Just like the deep blue seas

 

Spring will come and bring it's cheer

When love is near the angel's sing

Winter speaks of slower nights

Then at last you feel His wing

 

When tears of love you weep

The seasons play their saddest song

And yet their gladdest words are heard

 

When Jesus sings along

 

Just like the summertime

The season of the resurrection

Will be here one day, I pray

Just like the autumn breeze

When all who know will say

 

I never knew rainbows danced

Or angel rode on moonbeams

But now the winter's come at last

My Lord has taught me all these things

 

My Lord is Him whose eyes are love

My salvation in victory

My Lord, my love, I'm at your feet

And I'll praise thee through eternity

 

When tears of love you weep

The seasons play their saddest song

And yet their gladdest words are heard

 

When Jesus sings along

 

Just like the summertime

The season of the resurrection

Will be here one day, I pray

Just like the autumn breeze

You will see Him again and say

 

My Lord is Him who knows all things

My salvation is a victory

My Lord, what joy this brings

I'll praise thee eternally

 

My Lord is a love I've never known

My Lord is a love I've never known

My Lord is a love I've never known

I'll praise Him through the seasons of eternity

 

 
   

A Mother's Testimony

 

When I think of His hands

Full of loves rare cares

The perfection of each child His quest

It reminds me how great was His unwavering path

To honor His divine calling and test

 

It is His example I must follow

Must teach His love and lenity

With word and song I'll be strong

And mother a home of charity

 

When I think of His heart

Surely broken and torn

Pure compassion for those with trust

It reminds me of the joy I feel

Sharing the love of Christ

 

Many times a broken heart must pray

For the joyous gift so free

That comes from the tender grace above

And touches our hearts eternally

 

When I think of His wisdom

All knowing worlds without end

In sweet supplication never amiss

He remembered to thank Father in heaven

For blessings of eternal bliss

 

My knees are bent to honor Him

Shall I give thanks or cupidity

All my love does flow out now

In awe of divine potentiality

 

When I think of His words

So poignant and pure through

His parables given to attest

He remembered the plan on the mountaintops

And on sea he proved the rest

 

My lips will lead me where I go

For my words give me away

Now I must prove myself to him

With a voice of honesty

 

When I think of His hands

Pierced, covered with blood

I can feel a deep pain in my chest

Then remember the love He felt in His heart

For those who had done Him jest

 

When I think of His tears

The pain from His pores

And His heart pounding in His breast

Then remember the humble prayer on His lips

Of the promise he made without protest

 

And through that promise He kept for us

My family can be with me

Not just for life's short span

But throughout the eternities

 

And though I be a beggar

A man without a name

 

And though I be a widow

With nothing to offer Him

 

And though I be a loner

Broken as grains of sand

 

He will save me and you

For He is the son of man

 

 
   
mental illness virtue & vice
   

GONE BEYOND
 

Sickness drags her down, down, down,

Down, down, down, beyond the ground

Seeking help when no one listens

Listens to the sick ones pound

 

Pounding, sounding like a lion

Lying,  laying like a lamb

Meekly shaking, hardly waking

Waking to the sound of hands

 

Restraining some sickly servant

Serving steak to Mrs. Fair

She is starving, almost hungry

Hungry for some cold fresh air

 

Sickness drags her down, down, down

Down, down, down below the ground

Seeking love when no one gives it

Gives it to the sad sick souls

 

for Mable Greene

 

A Day's Work

 

Slinky dresses, made up eyes

Jewelry shining gold

The pasted smiles are veiled lies

 

So let the truth be told

That the glitter is just there

For the fatron to behold

 

The minds behind this glitter share

A solitary thought

Of how they fell into this snare

 

So willing-now their caught

And held by need alone

Or the fear of being bought

 

Thus hardened into stone

With happy days so few

Longing to go home

To begin their life anew

 

   
 

FEVER

 

Bottles of booze

And hookers hooking

Champaign bubbles

They're always looking

 

Money missing

Magic moments

With squares of red

Numbers clacking

Backing up against

The felt

With red and green

Chips stacking

 

Secret sibilant sounds

Seeking help

From Buddha, God

Or someone else

Just one hot roll

And progressive betting

Would be the perfect

Winners setting

 

   

Dead End

 

A vision                                 waking

Came to mind                        from a nightmare

I must not think it                 bad dreams

It passed fast                                        haunt me

But hit hard                                           thoughts enter

Vividly convincing                              scaring me

I must not see it                    but I'm awake

She was standing                 the blood

On the edge                                          has stained

Sick with anguish                 the street

Staring bleakly                     my eyes

It was just a vision                               saw

Of scull hitting cement         her

Blood spattering                  hit

Painting                               and

The butchers window         splash

Blood red                                              

I must push it out

Not think it

Bad thoughts

Come true

She's sick, I know

But must not go

Jumping

In front of

My face

As I stand

Helplessly

 

 

 
   

DEAD END

 

She might leave now

Now that time doesn't matter

Fatter than she was when

Ten years age she was sane

 

Time is a mirror

Mirror of terror

Fairer than eternity

Certainly ending time

 

She is ready to go

Show her God

Rod of lightning

Frightening us all

 

She finally jumps

Lumps swell in the throats

Coating the dead cement

With her unwanted waste

 

 
   

Discovery

 

Oh Misha why,

                                I thought you knew

You did, you see

                                And me, now me

I watch, I grieve

                                I see the blood

Run down your cheek,

                                Yet you're not dead

But you will be

                                And so will he

What have you done

                                Power must survive

And you must die

 

 

Yes, he loved you,

                                But others did, too

And your blood

                                So precious, pure

Over and over

                                To prove the law

Will be poured out

                                And love loses

And you lose

                                But what do I win?

 

 
   

Escape

 

A thought turned inside out,

locked in a packed bottle

of bubbly putrid brains

rocks the barrel and topples

landing beside the truth serum

filled with all the answers.

 

The fumes of the saturated cells

filled the room with the stench

and lifted the thought toward heaven

but stopped to watch

the bottle bursting, falling

in slow motion toward hell.

 

It escapes, turning the stomach

of the mushy corpse

hanging in the closet

of his mind.

 

 
friendship history
   

A hundred secrets

 

I lived in a house

In the hills of Hollywood

With a hundred stairs

And an encompassing view

Just my mother and Priny

Of the valley

Lived there with me.

Only one friend

Her name...

I had there an Indian who

was Donna.

We used to climb,

Ducking from

The hills and

Poison ivy.

There was

Leading from a castle

A narrow path, to

my house and hers

We had a marked place

Where we

Just in the middle

Would meet

No one knew

That was s short cut

Our path

Through those hills

It was one secret

Of one hundred.

 

Futile Energumen

 
The pyramids of their Gods

Towered with uncertainty

Creating a cosmic green house

Perishing not through the ages

Of unknown civilizations;

Stating facts undissected, while

Brilliant men stammer

Searching for answers

Unwilling to accept faith unworthy

With crystal skulls they operate

Destroying faithful all ancestors

 

One million years have passed

Like dust from a star

Disappearing through the

Triangle of knowledge

Swallowed with Atlantis

Leading nowhere-or somewhere

Arousing God's wrath

They greet Mr. Neanderthal.

 

   

Christmas Friends

 

Friends like you are special

Really just so sweet

I couldn't forget your love

Nor resist giving you a treat

 

On Christmas eve when all is still

And you're sitting by your fire

Winking at you with each flame

Is your secret friend that you admire

 

So have a very Merry eve

And when sleep fills your eyes

Know how much your friend loves you

As you glance up at sparkling skies

 

To Yates...We spoke of you

 

Figure of his own he was

Irish Mythology and Fairy Tales

He loved Maude Gonne, but she was gone

The rose of peace and

The rose of battle were

Threatened by the sorrow of love

First and last as one.

His world rudely shaken

Power of love within it taken

Famous harmony of leaves

And life awakened by a frail girl

Mythological characters live with

The twins Castor and Pollux.

The decline a a great civilization

Parallel to the Christians

Visitation of the Divine;

Great wings beating still

Against the blood of the air and

The climbing moon in an empty sky,

Symbolic of Helen, but not

Literal object of affection;

Doomed as you and

All those who die without love!

Those weeping from bed,

Arising, weeping from the sea know

The center cannot hold.

Replaced by ugly noises are

Man's image and his cry.

The best lack all convictions.

I may have entertained you

If you were with me

The white stars in the sky,

The loud chanting of the quiet leaves

Make my eyes see double.

Musical flavors abound

Your eminent beloved work

Stands alone among the greats!

The war had given you inspiration

But the blood dimmed tide was loosed

Looking forward, and

The rest are full of passionate intensity,

Like Hitler and the Nazi's,

The future in the second coming,

The image bank we draw on,

Troubles my sight.

The lion body

And the head of a man moving,

Shadows of the indignant

Desert birds, and

The two centuries deteriorated sickens you.

What rough beast slouching toward Bethlehem

Would die to be born again?

The vision is born of truth.

Even St. John of the Cross believed

The substance of the experience was valid.

You hint the end of all

Your rough beast, is of

The vision of His coming.

The complexity and yet the smoothness

Is like the music of Mozart.

Smoothly flowing over the water.

Your battle against authority,

The danger in your wish is sad.

The Bishop and all the Crazy Janes

Living through your fingers

Crumbles the hearts pride.

The curses and the Bishop

All found softly in the tomb

Their skin alive was white

The skin in death turns black.

The language is crazy

But specifically sustained

By the woman's sorrows

And the solid man.

The system of viewing

The interior and exterior life

Looks beyond all life,

Through others life, your life!

Return to old civilization

The disgust in life you see

Your friends contributed to your dreams,

Making a living, making a life.

The fumes of apple wine

Remind Wilbur and I of you.

 

   
 

In Search of Old Shanghai

 

Old Shanghai, where has all your glory gone

Where flow your exotic shores

And the sailors who sung your songs

 

Old Shanghai, your beauty is surrounded

By gray blocks of concrete and drying rags

And ugly streets, walking, driven, and pounded

 

Old Shanghai has lost it's sweet pollen

And given heed to factories and dust

And eaten everything that's fallen

 

Old Shanghai, your ports have been abused

Your children and your old ones, too

Everything in your path has been used

 

Old Shanghai, soon you will be no more

Only rusted antiques will be viewed

In museums where your life was stored

 

Poor Old Shanghai, your death is drawing near

Your simple life to be destroyed

When every stroke of culture has disappeared

 

   
 

A Florentines Wife

 

Gioconda, have a lasting memory

Five hundred years, she's old

But in the hearts of millions

She holds a secret never told

 

Her enigmatic smile, her slender hands

She was but one of three to thee

Describe her beauty, no one can

Could you have known her popularity?

 

They gaze at her with trembling hearts

From all across the sea, they come

To lay, just once, their eyes upon

La Gioconda, the sacred one.

 

Leonard possessed the special talent

He captured her soul with paint

Great pains taken, suffering spent

To portray Mona Lisa, the loving saint.

 

   
memories attraction
   

I Remember

 

I remember now, the silver lining

Beyond the veil of life defining

White lace bumbling at noonday time

When everyone seemed to be in rhyme

 

I remember my mama's sweet eyes

The special smell of rhubarb pies

Playing in tall cool blades of grass

When I was just a real young lass

 

I remember papa's piano tunes

And pastel sweet peas in new bloom

With sparkling April dew on the path

That led me schoolward day at last

 

I remember lips of cherries sweet

The moonlit night he swept me off my feet

Smiles that tickled deep within

Every moment thoughts of him

 

I remember white poppy lace

Pink cotton puffs upon my face

Those two sweet words sung in key

Meant he would spend his life with me

 

I remember many things

Sweet honeydew and wedding rings

The whisper of my lovers song

The tears I shed when he was gone

 

I remember laughs, frowns, and jokes

When we got together with the folks

Ups and downs meant life was on

Lost emotions meant life was gone

 

I remember rain, smoke, and dirt

Even remember deep down hurt

When sorrow sung beneath the soil

And all I ever did was toil

 

I remember a certain wishing well

Even our china dinner bell

My sweethearts mansion on the hill

The smell of the earth that we did till

 

But most of all

 

I remember tiny feet

Soft blue eyes and skin so sweet

Baby laughter and baby tears

I best remember through the years

 

Yes, baby bumbling with purple toes

More precious than silk, that tiny nose

That clear small voice that spoke to me

Of secret love that was meant to be

 

That velvet skin on my bosom breast

Gave me more joy than all the rest

Cupid eyes and cherub lips

Even remember first little steps

 

When one had grown, another born

I loved them each and every morn

The darling children born to me

Were my reward for eternity

 

When life turned cold and dark one day

It seemed the hardest game to play

But deep inside I always knew

That one day would be, just we two

 

Wait I did, and now at last

We'll be together as worlds go past

With memories sweet of angel's born

To us on gentle sunlit morns

 

Though I remember it all my dear

I choose to sleep without the tears

Instead, remember throughout eternity

My wonderful moments in mortality

 

Cry not for me, nor for yourself

Don't put your feelings on a shelf

Lift up your life and remember me

And know through Him, you'll too be free

 

One day soon we will meet

Sitting at our Savior's feet

You and I, just we two

With life and love and joy renewed


Written through inspiration from Grandma Mable Greene's point of view.  Printed in her funeral program.  1985

 

PRIDE IN A BILLIARD BALL

 

A bald man sits

In red surroundings

Drinking, smoking

Almost drowning

 

He shaves his head

Puffs and glances

Rubs his nose

Almost dances

 

The shiny head

Burns his fingers

Watches numbers

Almost lingers

 

He likes his scull

Sips his drink

Looks around

Almost blinks

 

He sees her coming

Bites his lip

She looks at him

Then she sits

and thinks-

"Too bad he's bald"

 

   

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